Like i am an emotionless personal something, but that was happening in the same time, and the minute i hear my colleague got killed, it felt like, it is ok, his Soul Rest in peace, i will be killed any minute. I will see them in heaven, maybe. Now, i am far away, and i will see them in heaven, maybe. Now, iam faraway, and it i will see them in heaven, maybe. Now, i am far away, and it is different when i hear somebody has killed. Ithink different when i hear somebody has killed. I think that because i have Friends And Family in gaza, i dont even know if they are alive or dead yet because there is no telecommunications and barely any internet. I dont know who i lost and who i did not lose. To me, honestly, and a personal level, i feel kind of number, i feel i am not processing, i dont understand what is happening, i dont understand how it is over A Hundred days, i dont understand how it is happening again. Pa. Understand how it is happening aaain. . , again. A young reporter with over 5