at home. i was escaping into fantasy and science fiction. science fiction first and then fantasy later. you lost your two brothers, your dad and the boys, as i know you refer to them. it was always dad and the boys. that s how they were called. dad and the boys. not peter and paul but dad and the boys. and most of the siblings had left. they had families of their own so it was just you and your mom. that s a difficult thing. i talked to howard sfwern this as well. howard stern said he felt like towed treat his mom like a china tea cup. i always viewed my mom as a space alien who had landed on the planet and her ship was immobilized and i had to protect her and show her how to live in this world. and i felt that until the day she died. and now i look back and i realize, one of my mom s