very dangerous things that went on. and i participated in a lot of them. and i survived. and it was only by the grace of god i m now convinced i survived. i thought i survived because i was lucky. but you don t get that lucky that many times. w. gets sworn in, you re in washington, you re nearby, but you re at the capital, where are you? i was down in a biker bar in southern maryland. i was trying to pick a woman up at a bar. her husband had a.45-caliber stuck right if my face. he pulled the trigger. he out-chambered the bullet. and somebody stopped him. in the parking lot i said, god, if you exist, i won t ever drink again. and i haven t, it s 14 1/2 years. you ended up in a psych ward