the most? my mother. she didn t raise me this way. you know? she didn t raise me this way. she s it kills me inside to know that i hurt her heart. i cry. i just cry. i cried for three days. i still cry, because i don t teach my kids to raise their hand. and for this just to happen, i m sorry. i m sorry. when this happened, what did you say to de andre? i wanted to jump through the phone and wring his neck. have you ever been violent towards women? i ve never been violent towards a woman. ever? ever. reporter: johnson says that he doesn t second guess florida state s decision to kick him off the team but he is devastated. now, do you believe you deserve a second chance? yes, sir, without a doubt. what you saw on the video was not who i am. reporter: johnson s attorney says his client is forbidden from court from reaching out to