you know that beast. what it did, it unlocked all of my damage, bro. i was in a psychotic state and i did something that i can t take back because it was my choice to use and, therefore, it was my choice sure. all of those choices are ours all the time, so you had never met pat beyond that night, right sn? no. do you remember this his ima all? i do. being a visual person, i do remember yeah, he was a hippie at heart. it was an amazing mu decisiomusa guy who shined with life. that man s got something spiritual about him, you know? i wish you would have had the chance to really get to know him because maybe you would have second guessed your, you know, your decision of robbing and killing us, you know. and i don t remember any kind of bad blood when you and josh were at the house. it wasn t like that on our end. it was as we go into this