did you drink on growing pai pains ? no, i would protected and sheltered by my mom or people on the show. but any time i was alone or had access, if i had a chance to drink, if would go to excess. how much? to the point of blackout. you tried to get sober? for six years. i tried pretty much out there. i went to rehab, did outpatient programs, i did traditional 12-step. your mom had google. it made a huge difference. she happened to come across a program. it was an implant that started in australia. she said, we might have found what we re looking for. cue the doctor. doctor, what did he find in you? what a lot of people need to find which is a medication-assisted treatment.