in many ways my family has also suffered a great loss. their pain is fresh because they only learned about it two weeks ago, the moment the verdict was read, the moment their hopes of ever welcoming me home someday were dashed. my home was here today, was in california awaiting anxiously in front of the tv. my mom came to visit me after court that dark day. she had spoken to my dad on the way over and she told me that in the 34 years that they had been together she has never heard him cry the way he did that day. i caused them that pain. i will concede that with travis family theirs is a much greater loss. it is my hope that with the verdict you have rendered that they will gain a sense of closure. steven said he doesn t want to look at his brother s murderer