to actually look forward to and to be able to know that my bills can be paid for the rest of my life and i don t have to worry about that. but my life is worth way more than that to me. billions. if i could put it in monetary terms. i was looking at your website for your paintings which are richard phillips gallery.com. you are a gifted artist. i don t think i m gifted. i don t think i m gifted. you are gifted and you just need to take the compliment. and you ve been painting since 1990 and we put the pieces of art up and it is hopeful and haunting. so if you were to paint yourself now, what would that self portrait look like? that is a very interesting question. i ve never thought of it in those terms. however, i probably would have to paint myself as i don t