i knew i was bleeding out. and my body was going into shock. so i closed my eyes, and welcomed it. and figured i d join my wife and my three kids. but as i was slipping away, i heard this little girl call out to me. daddy, don t you go. don t you leave me. and just when i thought, you know, i was enveloped by a darkness and ready to go to sleep, i heard her voice and decided to come back. reporter: then the unimaginable, gail, the love of his life, was gone. the story i got from one of the first responders regarding my baby, the youngest one, was that they found her in gail s arms. when they got to her, they told
never been involved with anything like that, i didn t smoke pot in high school, never took drugs, never went to the parties, never did anything like that and once i got once of inkon gcon grewty spira, it was an addictive behavior. it s like so many other addictive behaviors that alcoholics deal with, or others deal with with different issues and started to become compulsive with me, but i was so ashamed of it and so desperately wanted to manage it myself, i kept it a secret. now, people were angry at you, very angry, mostly people from your can church and congregation and people around the country who looked at you as an evangelical leader and saw you again as a role model, pastor. yes. mike: how many of those folks reconciled with you? now, many many are, gail s book is helpful to people and because they read through it and it starts it make sense and when