stop existing because that s how people see you. i experienced it all, in all of its glory and all of its drama, and i was expressing myself pretty consistently throughout, just not on television. i read you felt like being away from that daily grind, you said that life got richer and more colorful, and i like that. it feels like one of those videos where the guy put ostown glasses for the first time and sees colors. i had no idea all this was going on. for the first few months after leaving the show, i was a little forrest gumpy. what? you don t need to swipe the card? you just hold it up and suddenly the groceries are yours? impossible. even to the point of being able to pick the kids up from school and driving them home and listening to the conversation in the back, i think that informed how i went back to doing another