Around the house, i was losing my appetite, and this is very cheney i wasnt fearful or anxious about my situation, id lived a wonderful life and now it was ending. How do you feel now . [laughter] wrong again. [laughter] no, i it was, i wrote that very seriously. It was a very serious moment. It obviously comes up from time to time. I did believe id reached the end of the line, and it was, as i said in the book, it was not frightening. I was at peace, and it was more difficult for my family to consider than it was more we to consider. For me to consider. The miracles of had earn medicine, one night 20 units of blood and installed a pump, then i got the transplant thanks to a donor. So every day when i wake up, you know, ive got a smile on my face, thankful for a day i never thought id see again. Its, it really affects your sense of whats important and what isnt. And a lot of the things that we deal with in our daily lives arent really very important when you lay it over against that ki