yes. can you see how it looks? oh, yeah. i can. i can. there are a lot of things i don t understand myself. i don t understand myself why i did it. i don t understand why especially now why i couldn t have stayed home and tried to contact her a few times. i guess in my head i had the thought i could do something to help if she needed help. sometimes with a girl like susie the thing you can do to help is to walk away. yeah, probably probably would have been best, at least for me. the jury was out about as long as it was for marty larson drove from billings to glendive, the time it took to end susie s life, three hours. the verdict, guilty. what was it like to hear that guilty verdict? everybody hooped and hollered and hugged. it was just like a big weight just lifted off of you. there s something hugely important about justice.