Was a way to try to make sense about it. I wished at the time there were more out there that could help me understand what was happening. And as i started writing more and more and realizing there was then cut material out there i decided to write this book and so it became a kind of creation of first my experiences and then my intent to make sense of my experiences more than just my ordinary everyday experience is nothing particularly unique i think its very ordinariness is what lies with the kind of beginnings of what became an analysis of the broad culture and a way that leaves of an experience of cancer through its hegemony and the way that it is so similar for Cancer Patients and those radiation and chemotherapy are so unique in the personal experience to have chemotherapy cut in your arm once every few weeks or six times or however many times people have a or lying in the radiation machine is such a lonely experience and yet so many of us have to go through it. Its a normal Ameri