failing them twice would be committing a type of suicide in my life. nuh-uh. we don t even have a samoan word for suicide. we don t believe in that [ bleep ]. it s not our life to take. but that would be how intense it would be for me to disappoint my siblings. she s been in the fail for five months for failing to report to a drug rehabilitation program. now her judge has given her a second chance. she will soon be released on probation on the condition she reports to the program. no more drugs. no more bull [ bleep ]. no more running the street. this monster will be put in a cage forever. i m done. i i don t even know yes went this far. earnest salmans has been asking how things went this far as well. he was nearing the end of a one-year sen tent for auto theft when he was charged with the
just hides it a little bit deeper for another day. i miss my kids every day i wake up. i think about my kids. i can t look at pictures of what i had out there. the last i ve received anything was a picture from my youngest daughter. she drew me a flower. with a happy face on it. that meant more to me than anything else that i ve got in here. salmans is allowed out of his cell 30 minutes a day but is a total separation inmate. he is always alone. he spends some of his time on an enclosed rec yard. getting to play some basketball with myself. i wasn t allowed to play with nobody else. i have no human contact. it mess with your confidence. it messes with your self-esteem. i don t know if i m acting right. i don t know if i m, you know i don t know if i m what these people are saying i am or if i m