the fact that you took time out of your day to write me means a lot. i told her, be strong, and you ll get through this. it s a learning experience. i am being strong and trying to make the best out of the situation. she shot me a little glossy, i cuddle with it at night. no, i m just kidding. once an inmate is validated as a gang member in corcoran, they have a choice, stay in the gang or drop out and debrief. our officers were allowed to follow officer garcia into the debrief process.
you ll get through this. it s a learning experience. i am being strong and trying to make the best out of the situation. she shot me a little glossy, i cuddle with it at night. no, i m just kidding. once an inmate is validated as a gang member in corcoran, they have a choice, stay in the gang or drop out and debrief. our officers were allowed to follow officer garcia into the debrief process. there s one building set
the business for them. sure. and they never came through although they said they would. at that point, i felt like, what s the point of this? since you ve entered the debriefing process, up until now you re getting ready to get endorsed to an sny, how has it been for your phase one, phase two? what have you been feeling? i feel like the world s been lifted off my shoulders. i had so much responsibility. i was always concerned about everybody else and what i had to do following these rules and regulations and all that of the circle. you ve had the opportunity to be out there on the yard with other inmates in the same type of situation. how s that feel being amongst other inmates? it s good. it s good. one of my one of my best friends is an ex-associated member and another is an ex-nlr member. those are two of my best friends. in the past, even though we re on a respectful level, we re all enemies. i want to thank you for coming in here and speaking with us. being open wi
and you re validated as what? mexican mafia member. can you tell us why you ve chose to leave that gang life behind you and debrief? i found myself in a position to go ahead and get a cellie after nine years. and go ahead and have basically a normal program. i was put in the position to either i kill this individual or i come this way. according to christian, the mexican mafia wanted him to murder his new cellie, but the igi informed our producers that christian approached them, fearing his new cellie was going to kill him. either way, dropping out is something christian never thought he would do. the fact that it even entered my mind, i was defeated. i knew then because that was never an option. it was either kill or die. that was it. you know what? the first thing that popped in my head, i m going to go ahead and do this dude. and after sitting there rotting by myself, it finally popped in my head that, third, but unthinkable, you know, come this way as far as do the de
things they didn t want to do, being forced to do. it s like the higher you go up, the more you see. the debrief process takes months, sometimes even years. because the igi must verify the truth of an inmate s autobiography. for myself, back in 2001, when i was in county jail, they ordered me to hit my own uncle because he was a dropout. and then after that, that s when i got my little points, what they call points. they train us to do all that. how were you trained? you got different educations. you got your street education, your squad leaders, which they teach you how to do all your warfare tactics, your weaponry, then you got your kill squad. once you learn all that, you