you ve lost your mother in this horrible way. he almost took your life. but tell me what s the hardest right now and why? my son and watching him suffer. my mother, she s at peace and she s good. and i m good with where she is. and big david, well he did what he did. and he s at peace. and little david is still walking and breathing and suffering and it s just hard to watch that. i pray for him every day. every day. first thing i do when i wake up. last thing i do before i go to bed
other way and pretends that he does no wrong. missy says that david has written her several angry letters. so for now she has decided to stop writing back or visiting. tough love, you think? sure. wever long she s going to use that excuse. tough love. what, she can t talk to me? she can t write me back? whatever. i love him and support him, no matter what he does. but i m not going to enable him. he keeps making bad choices and that s why he keeps ending up here, because he has a drug problem, which i don t think he ll admit to that, even so. he thinks it s more
personally i think it s manipulation at its finest. i know he s hurt. i know he s angry. i know he feels lost and abandoned. and all of that is completely natural. that doesn t give him the right to be mentally or emotionally abusive to me. i think david has misplaced anger. he doesn t know how to handle what his dad did. he has never dealt with it. he put himself there. he s the only one that can pull him out of it. i cannot fix this. missy still lives in the home where her husband, david sr., fired the shots that forever changed her life. well, my mother was killed here. i was shot at the kitchen table. i m not going to let that take away from my home. he took enough. i love my home. i love coming home to my home. i m very proud of my home. my peace. this is my happy. this is my safety zone. believe it or not.
again, i didn t start it. but i finished it, as i always do. the other inmate involved in the fight is kevin russell. have a seat in that gray chair. both men are taken to the infirmary for examination. how are you feeling, man? are you all right? talk it over, man. you don t hit females! bviously you heard him say that about hitting the girl. any truth to that or is he just making up uf no. me and my old lady got in a little scuffle. i held her back from hitting me and that s what that s all about. after the investigation and another hearing, ratliff and russell both get 30 days in disciplinary segregation. 30 days. it will be 80 days i ve done this whole entire trip. that s more than half my time i ve been here. so do you see a pattern developing here, david?
i blamed her for a lot of it. i blamed her. i blamed myself. i blamed her parents. you know. i felt like everyone just came down on my dad too hard. and i still feel that way a little bit. i get a lot of the blame. and, of course, i understand it. and i take it. and i accept it. and it s okay. i m a mom. that s what i do. i know that what his father did is not my fault. i love my son. he s my heart. and i ll never give up on him. although i have practiced tough love. i m not a parent that looks the other way and pretends that he does no wrong. missy says that david has written her several angry letters. so for now she has decided to stop writing back or visiting. tough love, you think? sure. however long she s going to use that excuse. tough love. what, she can t talk to me?