hug and say, i care about you, kaitlyn, and everything s going to be okay. i ll tell you something really shameful about myself. the first time i shot up, i looked at myself in the mirror with a big grin. something was missing in me, whether it was a self-image situation, whether it was a character flaw. i came up with a stable family in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn t have anyone else who could have talked me out of what i was doing. an intervention wouldn t have worked. i didn t have a child. i have a 7-year-old daughter now who i never would have had. i never would have thought. i looked in a mirror, and i saw somebody worth saving, or at least that i wanted to try real hard to save.
i ll tell you something really shameful about myself. the first time i shot up, i looked at myself in the mirror with a big grin. something was missing in me, whether it was a self-image situation, whether it was a character flaw. i came up in a stable family, in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn t have anyone else who could have talked me out of what i was doing. an intervention wouldn t have worked. i didn t have a child. i have a 7-year-old daughter now who i never would have had. i never would have thought. i looked in a mirror, and i saw somebody worth saving, or at least that i wanted to try real hard to save. anybody can find themself very easily in this situation. and, you know, i look back on that, and i think about my
contrast that with what happens when you stick a spike in your arm. and why wouldn t you. so i had this picture in my head when i got the phone call that my daughter s father had been in the accident and i had just had a c-section and they come in with this needle to give me ativan, and all i needed was a hug. i needed someone to give me a hug and say, i care about you, kaitlyn, and everything s going to be okay. i ll tell you something really shameful about myself. the first time i shot up, i looked at myself in the mirror with a big grin. something was missing in me, whether it was a self-image situation, whether it was a character flaw. i came up with a stable family in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn t have anyone else who
really shameful about myself. the first time i shot up, i looked at myself in the mirror with a big grin. something was missing in me, whether it was a self-image situation, whether it was a character flaw. i came up with a stable family in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn t have anyone else who could have talked me out of what i was doing. an intervention wouldn t have worked. i didn t have a child. i have a 7-year-old daughter now who i never would have had. i never would have thought. i looked in a mirror, and i saw somebody worth saving, or at least that i wanted to try real hard to save. anybody can find themself very easily in this situation. and, you know, i look back on
i came up with a stable family in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn t have anyone else who could have talked me out of what i was doing. an intervention wouldn t have worked. i didn t have a child. i have a 7-year-old daughter now who i never would have had. i never would have thought. i looked in a mirror, and i saw somebody worth saving, or at least that i wanted to try real hard to save. anybody can find themself very easily in this situation. and, you know, i look back on that, and i think about my daughter. what i ll tell my daughter. you know, that was daddy. ain t no doubt about it. but i hope i can say that was daddy then. this is daddy now. that i m alive and living in hope. thank you, guys. thank you. [ applause ]