motherland what was never the case with me because i knew from day one what was happening was my grandfather was killed and father s life was ruined. it was easy for me to make the decision. i defected in 1989. and they couldn t kill anybody but i was an exchange student in england in 1970. i would never defect from there because my father would be sent to siberia and family thrown out of their apartment and lose their jobs and everything. it was a pretty tough society. i see the other pictures behind you. with the k.g.b., you have one of the individuals and you can go to siberia. for us, it was the best marketing.