A family with incest. Because you know in the military when were functioning at our best a cohesive unit with brothers and sisters of the band of brothers and sisters i mean we are family when that ball and of trust is violated. The wound penetrates to the very most inner part of ones soul one psyche. I have this folder that i keep i have all my boot camp letters in it for my mother my sister and. People and. I was just going through some of this stuff and im like whats this and you know and i open it up im like oh my god. My suicide letter. Bomb im sorry for the grease that you must feel. Just because im gone physically doesnt mean i will be there spiritually i truly feel that god will take me without question even though i took my own life. Ive had the most broken thoughts of dreams and physical pain to remind me of the her if it acts upon me that happened while a duty a mother brother sister and husband should never live with knowing the horrible acts upon me find peace in knowing t