no, just started growing. the reason why we have your down here is because we re searching your cell. got information that either you or your cellie are involved with the 2-5s. have you ever heard of the 2-5s? i ve heard of them, but i have nothing to do with them. while they re up there searching the cell, it appears at this point that well, they haven t found anything up to this point. i don t anticipate finding anything on you. we re looking at your cell ie. it will be okay. just relax. all right? come on. why do you think i m here? i probably already know. you guys were up in my house two weeks ago. who was up in your house? put two and two together. put your hands up. who was up in your house? a guy was. it wasn t my crew. it was. okay. take this off.
used. get down! get down! get down! the element of surprise is key as it will hopefully give them an extra step on any inmate hurrying to flush contraband. put your hands up! get on the ground, now! get on the ground, now! cellie on top. put your hands up! it was early because my eyes could barely open. i was asleep. i was dreaming about ashanti and sleeping. i was sleeping and suddenly i heard the door pop and heard yelling, get down, get down. so i just kind of froze, stayed still. and they informed us to get out and backed up in the cells and backed up and cuffed us and brought us into the shower and proceeded to search the cells. well, if you run the flashlight through the back of the bottle, you will see if there s any kind of weapons or any kind of contraband. you ll see the outlining of a
the yard to be my cellie because of who i am. just days before this interview, terry had another fight. i had a fight in my cell with my cellmate because i was tired of living with him. for like seven months, it s like being forced into a relationship that you don t want, so when i moved out, he attacked me in the kitchen, and i seen tears and i seen frustration, but i didn t care. i mean, he stabbed me with a cigarette which they make here homemade. he i mean, pulled out all my hair, it grew back since, you know what i m saying, but i m dealing with that. if terry retaliates she runs the risk of going to the shu and possibly lengthening her sentence. with a parole date in sight, she s opting to remove herself from the situation. i feel like i m a little bit better now than just to be everybody s piece of meat. so i try to pick a cellie that i can get along with.
we only get yard, like, three times a week. it lasts from 9:00 or 12:00 or 12:30. usually right before i go out, i get panic attacks because i don t know if i m coming back in. you don t know what s going to happen here. as another part of his gradual transition to an sny population, jeremy is no longer in a solitary cell. it s been about three years three and a half years since i had a cellie. as soon as i got to the shu, they made me single cell because i had too much violence. i knew i was going to have to take a cellie and i was kind of worried about it. over here men tend to act a little more aggressive, chaotic, you know, a little more uncontrolled of their own emotions. but what did you fear? being trapped in a cell with a big-ass cellie who s going to beat the hell out of you or chop you up, you know. wait until you re asleep and cut your throat.
you re doing time. i don t care where you at. from the places i ve been, i call them hot spots. for the last 15 years, all violence. every day, lockdown. fighting. so i was very tense. and i was really ready say anything wrong really ready to just that s all i knew was violence. violence was my answer to everything. 18 months when i turned 7 1/2. that s all you knew? that s all i knew. violence. then i start seeing, know what i m saying, start getting a hold of myself, checking myself out inside. now that i m here with terry, i feel like a whole lot of tension just eased. as their relationship evolves within the cell, clarence and terry discuss their future outside the prison walls. if you have a problem, what you going to do? fall, back slide? say, okay, i m going to deal with this problem. i m not going to use this as an excuse to prostitute. society is against people like