there were people who needed my help. i hoped not to get in anybody s way and helped in any way i could. in boston, it is patriot s day. but carlos was not there just to celebrate. i give away 400 american flags to the spectators. i was holding the last one in my hands when the bombs went off. for several years he has been talking about the needs of military vets and suicide prevention. this is my son, we lost him in iraq. his son, alex, was deployed to iraq in 2004. in carlos s memory is the fact he learned carlos was killed by a sniper. i felt my heart went down to the floor and rushed 100 miles an hour to my chest.