what happened and not expecting what, not actually being aware of what was going on because i hadn t seen the news, excuse me, the news or heard anything, i tried to make our way to boston, and it was chaotic. we didn t know where we were going. i didn t ask the ambulance driver which hospital they were taking him to. we ended up at boston medical hospital where we then realized that he was at beth israel. and for three and a half hours i couldn t find my son, j.p.. i honestly thought he was dead because during the three and a half hours i couldn t find him, i found out that paul had lost his leg. so it was jenna: you ve talked about this as being the worst nightmare that you can imagine, and hearing you tell the story, we can certainly understand that. why do you want to be in court today? i just, when it happened, i didn t watch the news. i wasn t aware any of the news for the first month because, you know, we were living it. my boys, i was going back and