eyes. [ sirens ] i remember the paramedics gathering around ben and measuring all types of vitals and that sort of thing. the ambulance arrived and they put him into the back of the ambulance with my mom. there was a moment there where you just let go? there was a point in there where i realized that the answer to my prayer maybe was going to be, i m going to take him home, to heaven. finally, they were wheeling him from the e.r. to a regular room. and i was walking alongside the gurney holding ben s hand. and this warm little hand, which i was loving at the moment, ben was looking straight up and he
reality that wasn t with us anymore. and i believed immediately that he was in heaven. what made you believe that? my faith was strengthened in those moments. i didn t doubt it at all. the video went viral. it did. it had been going around for hours even though ben had just passed away a few hours before. why do you think he made that video? it was ben s way of saying good-bye. and i think it was a gift to the world. i think he wanted others to have hope that there is life after life. and that there is peace in the midst of suffering.
conversation for you? it was really heart breaking. he was just so young. and he s having to deal with difficult questions, and i just wish he didn t have to deal with that at such a young age. on the first day of summer, ben thought he was going to be on the lake wake boarding. i went into the room and it was similar to the time he was 4, but i knew he wasn t having a seizure because he was conscious and he was talking. his fingers were blue. by the time we got to the e.r., we learned there was an abscess on the tonsil. so we went into everything expecting it to be extremely routine. but it was during the surgery that ben experienced cardiac arrest. he finally got up to icu and he was unconscious and they had him on the a breathing machine. they warned us that when he woke
reality that he wasn t with us anymore. and i believed immediately that he was in heaven. what made you believe that? my faith was strengthened in those moments. i didn t doubt it at all. the video went viral. it did. it had been going around for hours even though ben had just passed away a few hours before. why do you think he made that video? it was ben s way of saying good-bye. and i think it was a gift to the world. i think he wanted others to have hope that there is life after life. and that there is peace in the midst of suffering.
it was like that pitch white light. he said, and then all of a sudden i realized kid cudi was with me. the rapper. yeah. and he said he had his hand on ben s shoulder. and he said there was this mirror. he said when he was looking in that mirror, he wasn t just seeing his reflection, but he saw his whole life. he said when he looked in the mirror, it was the best feeling and that he was happy with everything that had happened in his life and he was proud of himself. and ben thought he was going forward to heaven, but instead he woke up on the floor of the high school. i had come home from college to visit that weekend, and we sat out by the lake on our boat dock. it was very unusual to find him