in the moment were you conscious of that, that presence? did you feel that presence or did you just feel a strong instinct probably for first time to say no? no, i felt the presence of god telling me, you know what? this is it. you can choose the old life or you can choose the new life. and i will give it to you. like i said, i didn t know if i was going to make it out of there alive. i didn t know if it would be five minutes of a new life or 50 years of a new life. but as soon as i chose not to do those drugs, it was just a sense of freedom for me. physically i was still being held captive, but i realized that ashley smith wasn t in control and neither was brian nichols, but that jesus was in control. and the rest of the night was going to be the way he wanted it to be. ashley says the story of her kidnapping and what happened in that apartment is a story of
to be the last time i ever did it and it was going to be the last day of my life. i really believe god was saying do you want to continue living this life or do you want a new one. if you say no, i ll give you a new life. a new life, etch for five min ts, that sounded more appealing to me than the way i had been living. you see that in retrospekt. were you conscious of that? did you feel that presence? or did you just feel a strong instinct, probably for the nirs time to say no. no, i felt the presence of god telling me. you know what,this is it. you can choose the old life or if new life. and i will give it to you. like i said, i didn t know if i was going to make it out of there alive. five minutes of a new life or 50 years. but as soon as i chose not to do those drugs, it was just a sense of freedom for me, you know. physically, i was still being held captive. but i realize that ashly smith