From behind and 2 guys hold me down and one guy was pulling my pants down. And. You know. He was taking care of his business and you know struggled and i would be instructed hit and told you know told to shut up or theyd kill me. And i see how it destroyed my life. I mean it im ive been married 3 times this luckily i have a wife right now who ive been married to for 25 years. You start wondering you start sort of you know youre coming up with reasons why things are the way they are and for a long time i kept thinking i dont know this something something else. I had never told anybody over 30 years i decided to tell my wife. It was the scariest moment in my life i was going tell my wife she was going to leave me and i would be lost without her i mean honest to god i couldnt i couldnt get up every morning without my wife. You know. And i told i felt horrified and i felt sad and i felt angry and you know along the course of the evening you know feelings just started to surface that were p
Start sort of you know youre coming up with reasons why things are the way they are and for a long time i kept thinking i dont know if this something something else. I had never told anybody over 30 years i decided to tell my wife. It was the scariest moment in my life i was going tell my wife she was going to leave me and i would be lost without her i mean honest to god i couldnt i couldnt get up every morning without my wife. You know. And i told i felt horrified and i felt sad and i felt angry and you know along the course of the evening you know feelings just started to surface that were probably just simmering for a very very long time and she put her arms around me and were both sat there and sobbed it was like. This great weight had been lifted off for me. I think its important to recognize that military sexual trauma is not limited to women and in fact when it comes to the absolute numbers because of the proportion of men in much larger numbers than women actually the numbers a
Just taking care of his business and you know i struggled and i was being struck and hit and told you know told to shut up or theyd kill me. And i see how it destroyed my life. I mean it im ive been married 3 times does luckily i have a wife right now who ive been married to for 25 years. You start wondering a start sort of you know youre coming up with reasons why things are the way they are and for a long time i kept thinking i dont know this something something else. I had never told anybody over 30 years i decided to tell my wife. It was the scariest moment in my life i was going tell my wife she was going to leave me and i would be lost without her i mean honestly god i couldnt i couldnt. Get up every morning without my wife. You know. And i told i felt horrified and i felt sad and i felt angry and you know along the course of the evening you know feelings just started to surface that were probably just simmering for a very very long time and she put her arms around me and were bo
A. Term to be related to so its one of the things that you just dont you dont talk about it or you dont bring in the bodies essentially just keep yourself really really hard to forget. You know. They live in my head you know i can hear them. I can see their faces i can see what theyre doing to me. So i felt scared. And i was scared to tell my friends the people that really knew me the truth about what happened the shame as bad as it is for women is even worse for men because its all tied in with him a phobia the people who are doing the raping are not gay thats not the problem theyre worried about gays in the military the gays are not the rapists theyre heterosexual man for the most part this is not an issue of Sexual Orientation this is simply an issue power and violence male sexual predators for the large part of target whoever is there to prey upon whether thats men or women whenever. There is. Evidence of another when one has been sexually assaulted the question i keep asking mysel
Saw it was like. This great weight had been lifted off for me. I think its important to recognize that military sexual trauma is not limited to women and in fact when it comes to the absolute numbers because of the proportion of men in much larger numbers than women actually the numbers are even greater. I think one of the last bits of research showed that about one percent of males had been victims of Sexual Assault within the past year in the military that equals to about 20000 youll get labeled as a body and thats the nice term to be related to so its one of the things that you just dont you dont talk about it or you dont bring in what is your sense you just kind of keep yourself its really really hard there for you. You know and. They live in my head you know i can hear them. I can see their faces i can see what theyre doing to me. I felt scared. And i was scared to tell my friends the people that really knew me the truth about what happened the shame as bad as it is for women is e