of the amish school house shooter. even when you re described that way, do you worry that for the rest of your life that is how you will be labelled, as the amish mass shooter widow? you know it was a really hard thing for me to see in headlines, months, years after. it took a while to process, i knew the label that was put over me, i could choose to let it stay there or take it off. so you know it was my own healing in walking out from underneath that, made me not mind so much. yeah, i don t really want to be called that. and my life is so much more than a my past. my future is another direction. that will always be a part of the story. this is their father who did not come home. and presumably, as they got older, they knew what he did. you know, i knew they needed to know the details of that