on the 8th ofjune oki went to see him and said he looked tired. on the 9th ofjune i kept our chat brief so that he could rest. he laughed when i did my playful imitation of a relative. he said goodnight. his last words to me. on the 10th ofjune he was gone. my brother called to tell me and i came undone. earlier today i just felt very light and i don t mean that in a good way. i felt that i could very easily be blown away. i was very close to my parents. i wouldn t be who i am without them. they were remarkable people. even saying the past tense feel surreal even now so i don t know.