Caitlyn jenner the secrets of my life. A diane sawyer special. It was almost exactly two years ago this week, that a famous american had a stunning announcement. Bruce jenner said that inside, there had always been a woman in brain and soul. Its had a lot of us hurtling into a maze of questions about what is gender and sexuality. We agreed to meet later. So, a note before we begin, when Caitlyn Jenners book refers to bruce, it uses the pronoun he, and so will we. So, well head off to california to check in again. Two years ago, this is where it began. Bruce jenner, athlete, famous dad on a reality show, waiting to stun the world by announcing inside hed always been a woman. He greeted me at the door, 62 tall, welcoming and anxious. Wed never met before. How are you doing, baby . Its going to be an emotional roller coaster, but somehow im going to get through it. Reporter and when we sat down for the interview its been really tough. But here i am, im still here. Thats the good news. Reporter so bruce jenner is through tears, telling about the secrecy and confusion that had locked him into a kind of fortress his whole life. At a symbolic moment were talking about all this stuff reporter the ponytail came free. Are you a woman . Yes. For all intents and purposes. I am a woman. And thats very hard for bruce jenner to say, because why . I dont want to disappoint people. Bruce lives a lie she is not a lie. I cant do it anymore. Reporter in that moment, the anguished, uncertain man we knew as bruce said farewell. And two years later, as we pull up to a door at a house in malibu, someone very different comes out to say hello. Welcome. Reporter remember me . I do. Two years. Reporter casual, still welcoming, and this time, excited. We have so much to talk about reporter so what has it really been like, two years on the path living as a woman . Is the rumor of doubt and regret true . We start with that question from two years ago, slightly rephrased. So let me start with the same question. Caitlyn jenner is . Happy. Peaceful. Peace in my soul. All of that confusion has left me. Reporter you told me two years ago that a feminine side was a part of you. Mmhmm. Duh. Reporter do you ever have doubt that you did the right thing . Never. Never had a doubt. I did the right thing. Reporter do you miss being bruce . No, not at all. Not not even, not even close. Not even close. Reporter she says in the old days bruce would look in a mirror and feel the anxiety of a body in a kind of duel with what was true inside. And when you look in the mirror now, you get up in the morning and look in the mirror . Im excited about the day. For so many years i isolated myself. I wasnt i couldnt care less about the next day. Now i do. Reporter what have you learned about being a woman that you didnt know before these last two years . I think ive learned a lot about compassion. Caitlyn, have a great day. Same to you byebye. Reporter shed always said her dream was an ordinary day, an uneventful hello. I kind of come around the corner. And this guy goes walking by. And he just goes, morning, maam. Morning, kept walking. And i just go, how wonderful is that . Its so simple. All right, were going with the macaroni salad. Big one. And ill go with the potato salad. How are you today . Reporter you can see her two times a week at the supermarket, turning strangers into friends. This may be their only encounter with a trans person. I want it to be a good, joyful experience. Hi, im so sorry to bother you. Can i have a picture . My name is linnea. 1, 2, i probably take, you know, 20, 30, 40 selfies every day. I cant tell you what an inspiration you are to me. Well, thank you. I appreciate that. Whats your name . Matthew. Matthew. Get the camera out. Lets do it. Reporter she says some people look at her because of her celebrity, but there are others who seem confounded or wary. I always wonder why theyre staring. Reporter the Transgender Community has a word for it. When you feel someone is staring and singling you out, its called clocking. I had a guy actually ask for a selfie and said, oh, bruce, could you give me a selfie . And i looked at him. Nobodys called me that in two years almost now. And . I said, no problem. I want them to walk away saying, oh, Caitlyn Jenner was so nice, you know . That trans people, yes, are approachable. And theyre a vital part of our society. Reporter its been her mission since that First Magazine cover seen more than 3 billion times around the world. The cover that made your mouth drop. Okay, the cover of vanity fair. Reporter what do you say about that picture . Now, my feeling on that picture, i know, my kids that thought, you know what . Its a little too much. But from my standpoint, i had suffered for 65 years, okay . To have a beautiful shot of my authentic self was important. And the shock value. Reporter you wanted the shock value . Yes. I wanted to end the old bruce, my old life. And that picture did it. Reporter then she did it again four months later, in a room full of 6,000 people. Including superstars like lebron james, derek jeter. Its the espys the Academy Awards of sport and shes getting the arthur ashe award for courage. And in this room there are a lot of people who remember bruce jenner, the 1976 king of the decathlon. A man of unmatched strength and speed, mastering the ten olympic events that are the highest test of human endurance, and raw masculine power. Flying over the hurdles, heaving the shot put, so fast his competitors go down in agony, but he takes a victory lap for the usa. And now that same person is walking down the aisle in a long white dress. Id like to thank my family. Reporter there in the audience, the kardashian stepdaughters and his six jenner children. The biggest fear ive always had in coming out is i never wanted to hurt anyone else, most of all my family and my kids. Im so, so grateful to have all of you in my life. Thank you. Reporter also there, looking up at the person on stage, thousands of the toughest competitors of every sport. What were all of them thinking . These are my peers. These are, id been to the espys so many times. Kind of a scary place to go. Reporter you said you wondered if theyre looking at you trying to be supportive. But thinking, this what a freak. And i still wonder about that. Some guys can accept it, some guys cant. Reporter did you look at their faces . Or would it have been oh, i couldnt look at their faces. Reporter too daunting. She says she made it through this moment by thinking about the thousands and thousands of transgender people around the world, living in fear from bullying, homicide. In the Largest National survey of transgender adults, 40 have attempted suicide. All those kids just trying to live in a world of discrimination and ridicule. If you want to call me names, make jokes, doubt my intentions, go ahead, because the reality is, i can take it. But for the thousands of kids out there coming to terms with being true to who they are, they shouldnt have to take it. Reporter a promise to be their champion. And two years ago telling me she was setting out to create an inclusive world. What im doing is going to do some good. And were going to change the world. Reporter back when bruce first emerged as caitlyn and the path ahead seemed sure. Optimistic then . Too optimistic . I was hoping then, okay . There was a lot of hope there. Have i, in the last two years, had a bigger dose of reality . Absolutely. Reporter coming up, the optimistic trailblazer gets burned. The hurricane of criticism from all sides. The distance from some of her family. And the physical and psychological journey of becoming caitlyn. Whether youre after supreme performance. Advanced intelligence. Or breathtaking style. Theres a cclass just for you. 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And i didnt know there were others out there in the world that were like me. Reporter and like the little boy who lived in tarrytown, new york, 60 years ago. And had never even heard the word transgender. But at the age of 8 or 9, bruce jenner says he knew with certainty he was happier sneaking out in his sister or mothers clothes. I ate a lot of wheaties. Reporter a secret living inside the olympic icon on the wheaties box. And a secret still hidden when giving all those motivational speeches to corporate executives, dressed in a suit, but underneath often wearing a bra and pantyhose. I had my little suit on. I would walk off the stage, and i would feel like a liar. Youve just got no guts. Gamble. Gamble your best shot in life. Dare to take risks. Dare to take risks. Life has got to be a great adventure or its nothing. Steal. Steal every moment of happiness. Live every day as if its your last because we never know when that day is going to come. Reporter he fell into a severe depression. He started taking female hormones and felt better, but then lost his nerve and stopped. Deciding instead to put an instruction in his will for the day he died. Yeah. Reporter that that was going to be part of your will, to be buried. Yeah, it was. I thought that most of my life. I said, if i if i go and when im buried, yeah, i wanted to be dressed as her, because thats the way i was going to heaven. I would say id kind of shock everybody when they come and visit the casket. Reporter through the decades, wishing he could be as brave as the other younger pioneers coming forward. I am a woman. I live my life as a woman. My mom has her first child whos a girl. We didnt know anything about this. I was assigned boy at birth. You know inside what you are. Reporter she says its harder to get your bearings at the age of 65 after a lifetime of secrets. At the time she decided to come out, shed never even met another transgender person. In the beginning she was euphoric. Caitlyn caitlyn reporter but so uninformed, she was about to hit all the land mines. She was asked the hardest part of being a woman. Figuring out what to wear. Reporter on ellen, she seems hesitant when asked about marriage equality. That word marriage is really that that important to you, i can go with it. Its funny, youre a little not on board with it. No, im on board. Reporter she now says she is 100 on board. But there was also her reality show, which tackled some serious issues in the transgender world, but mixed in a lot of makeup, clothes, wine and the tonedeaf problems of privilege. So many paparazzis. Reporter she complained about paparazzi, while her Community Faces homelessness and violence. Not talking about paparazzi but talking about survival. Survival. Reporter the question i think was and im going to go okay, hit me hard. Reporter the question was do you really feel what theyre living . I feel it. And i see it. At the beginning of this whole thing, yes, i i knew absolutely nothing. Yes, i made mistakes. On some subjects, i think i was insensitive, honestly, because i just didnt know any better. Its tough to take 65 years of being bruce and then, like, overnight everything changes. At first, you you dont know how to handle it. Reporter some people in the Transgender Community were so angry they shouted her down in the streets. Do you have any idea whats really happening out here . You are an insult. I am not representing you. I am representing myself. Dont you [ bleep ] touch her reporter at the same time, internet trolls attacked her for being transgender. Just brutal, brutal. Its like you dont even go there anymore. Reporter whats the kindest thing anyones said . I love you. People who have thought about suicide and said they wouldnt do it. Reporter did she save lives . Absolutely. Reporter kids . Absolutely she saved lives. Reporter this is professor jenny boylan at Barnard College who has written the defining memoirs of being transgender. Shes also a member of the board of glaad and appeared on the cait jenner reality show. She says we underestimate what it was for caitlyn to begin this new life so isolated. And how much did she know and not know . She didnt know anything. I know some people roll their eyes at caitlyn. And i would ask them if they have ever had to do anything this hard as cait had to do, and i would ask them if they have gotten everything right the first time. Reporter and out in the country, almost overnight, a lot of americans were grappling with so many new ideas. Gender fluidity, gender neutral pronouns. Have you heard of gender neutral pronouns . Yeah, like they, or them. Ive heard of z, or zir . Z . Okay. Reporter we counted 58 gender options on facbeook. Kids arent surprised. Genderqueer, and i know intersex. Gender fluid, ive heard of that. Reporter but grownups . Can you name any other gender identities . No. Two for sure. Thats way too many. Reporter professor boylan sensed for some americans this was building into a kind of backlash. The fear is that the world is becoming an unstable place and that if theres if theres anything that we can depend on, its that there are men and that there are women. Reporter and the trigger was the president ial election year. This is why trump might win. This is exactly why. Its the [ bleep ] lunacy thats going on in colleges these days. Youre supposed to walk up to someone and say, hi, nice to meet you, what pronoun should i use for your name . Reporter the dating app tinder announced a new feature this week which gives users 37 different gender identity options. Its called, why democrats lost the election. Reporter coming up, a backyard barbecue. Controversy, parents taking sides. Thats what i was told last year. That the kids need to get over it. I didnt say get over it. Reporter in walks Caitlyn Jenner. 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And now, all of a sudden, she comes back for the second semester, and says shes a boy, and shes using the boys locker room. Reporter holly is a devout mormon. There are certain things that the religious Community Holds dear, and modesty and privacy, thats thats one of those things. They are never, ever, going to be okay with their daughter in an open locker room changing. In that locker room, theyre never going to be okay with that. Reporter beth agrees its about modesty. She is a christian who says that religious people often feel unfairly judged. That they are haters and bigots. Reporter theresa and her husband bo say its not just the parents. Theresa coaches Girls High School athletic teams. One of my juniors said, coach, i dont know if i can handle it. I dont know if i can handle it. And theres always this fear of something new, something unknown. Reporter carliss says this sounds familiar. And my White College basketball team, they didnt want to dress with me. I would go and dress somewhere else. Reporter but corrin thinks this is different. You cant go into a locker room one day and say, you know, im going to be africanamerican today. And tomorrow im not. If history has taught us anything, its that separate is not equal. Thats scary to me. Reporter jenny and others here think that separating out transgender kids is just unkind. I have a son and a daughter. My daughters seen my son naked a lot of times. Shes not traumatized. Shouldnt be a threatening thing. Thats what i was told last year. That the kids need to get over it. That they need to get comfortable. I didnt say get over it. Reporter and then, the most famous transgender person in the world arrives. Caitlyn, nice to see you. Reporter we had told the group she might come. You were one of my heroes growing up. You and i are both republicans, by the way, thats a great thing, and were both men of faith women in the faith, excuse me. I mean, thats its okay. Pronouns. I dont get upset about all of that. Its fine. I get it. Let me ask you this question, cause you are a person of faith. From your standpoint, as far as faith, how do you see this issue . I think that pope francis said it best, god loves us all. Reporter and then she surprises the group about which people have attacked her the most harshly. Out of all of the negative mail i got, especially at the beginning, was from people of faith. That is horrible, especially coming from people who profess to believe in god. Reporter holly says that has to change. And notes when she went public asking for separate stalls for kids in locker rooms i also was a recipient of unspeakable hate mail and death threats. It was just absolutely horrible. I think that we need to come to a point where we say, were not going to agree on everything, but for heavens sakes, quit bullying. Reporter and then there is someone who weighs in saying its possible to find Common Ground across this national divide. Hes dr. David vannasdall, superintendent of the Arcadia Public Schools in california. And says the real issue is privacy for all kids and that means practical solutions. The second we were able to get all the attorneys out of the room and remind ourselves what we do best. Reporter his schools have nearly 10,000 students. A few years ago, after parents and teachers decided to talk together, the school now has some gender neutral bathrooms which he says are freely used by all kids. And across the country, in the locker rooms, some schools use inexpensive curtains for those who are transgender and those who are not. Were going on six years, multiple students that are managing themselves with our behindthescenes support without impacting any students. Its been very successful. Reporter and do you have any parents objecting . No. No, we dont. Reporter and vanasdall says the students have responded with friendship for their transgender classmates. Which should tell us adults something that they care more about whats in the heart than the anatomy. Reporter from this backyard, a lesson in respect for a contentious and polarized nation. The person sitting in the front has taken hits from all sides. On her tv show, her transgender friends are horrified by her republican politics. Republicans, your people, they dont like us. Heres the deal. Yes, i did vote for trump. Reporter she says she believed donald trump was personally inclusive and that he would surprise everyone on lgbt issues. Here at the convention. I will protect our lgbtq citizens. Reporter and when President Trump saw her at his inauguration he wanted me to come play golf with him. Reporter but, just 34 days into his administration, she was shocked. He revoked an obama directive designed to strengthen federal protection of transgender kid on their bathroom choice. This administration for me, it was extremely, extremely disappointing. Heres the dealbreaker with the republican party. And the dealbreaker is, you mess with my community, you dont give us equality and a fair shot, im coming after you. Reporter back at our barbecue, its time for caitlyn to say goodbye. Thank you. Reporter but when i tell the group, im heading off to interview parents of transgender kids, some of them decide to come with me to the nearby coffee shop. Nice to meet you. Reporter dr. Vannasdall is greeted by a woman who says her transgender son was in one of his schools and thanks him for his open heart. We start by hearing family stories. Jody told about her little girl who knew something was not right at the age of 3. People think at 3, its just not possible. My kid, at 3, said, everyone thinks im a girl, and im not. And then i said, however you feel is fine. And then penelope said, no, i dont feel like a boy, mama. I am a boy. Thats as clear as it gets. Reporter parents danielle and stephen say like a lot of people, they were rocked when their 9yearold boy started asking about a sex change. And i remember walking out and going into our bedroom and going, oh, my god. Like, oh, my goodness. Reporter marsha confides she used to believe that being transgender was a choice. Until her daughter said she was a boy and fell into a terrible depression at not being understood. Marsha says think of these kids just trying to use a bathroom. Somebody called security on him. And so they took him out. And they put those twist ties on, you know, those zip ties on him until he could prove that was the restroom that he was supposed to go into. Im sorry that youre uncomfortable. I dont want you to be uncomfortable. But i dont want my baby to kill herself. Reporter and gina says for every parent, nothing is more compelling than your anguished child. Suicidal. Extremely depressed. Was hurting himself. Reporter finally finding happiness. When he learned about being transgender, it was like this light went off in him. Thats what he was. Reporter shes happy now . For the first year in about three or four years, she wanted to have a big birthday party. He is a karate champion. You know, he goes to karate tournaments twice a year and wins. He loves math. Hes probably the giddiest kid in the family, talks the most. Reporter one parent from the barbecue asks how she can help. What can our children do to be more supportive of your children in the school scene . I think, i mean, thats the greatest place to start is meet them. Meet the people who arent like you. And get to know them as people, as human beings. I so appreciate all the people who are here that want to hear these stories. Because, as a mother, this is the kind of hope that i get, thats what bridges this gap. You have a choice to operate from fear, and that sends you one direction. 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A person who spent her childhood loving cars, playing sports and knowing even then she was female. Every trans person asks that question, why . Why me . Why is this in my head . Theres got to be something biological to this. For a lot of scientists, one intriguing clue on that question comes from identical twins. We are the twins. Reporter these are 26yearsold southern girls. We can finish each others sentences, each others thoughts, each others feelings. Reporter identical girls, whose parents were once sure they were identical boys. Weve chosen not to show their full faces. Like so many other trans people, theyre concerned about their safety. But they say, they knew they were being forced into the wrong gender when they were 3 years old. And the best way i can explain it, is youre trying to claw your way out of this coffin that just keeps getting dirt put over it. Its a prison. Essentially its a prison. Reporter and heres an interesting finding. If you have one identical twin who is transgender, there is a 39 probability the other will be, too. Signaling something is genetic. And consider what happened to these two identical twin boys, who were separated at birth, raised in entirely different homes. And yet still somehow, by the age of 8, they both knew they were in fact girls. Born this way . Born this way, absolutely. Reporter this is dr. Jeremi carswell, dr. Norman spack of the gender clinic at prestigious boston childrens hospital. They remind parents its common for little kids to experiment with gender as theyre growing up. It doesnt mean anything. But they say a transgender child is different, not just experimenting. Especially as they head toward puberty. They will be insistently certain their anatomy is wrong. I had a 7yearold who looked at me and said, god made a mistake and this needs to come off. Reporter so youre saying that youre not going to talk a child into being transgender. No. No. Reporter that cant happen unwittingly, accidentally. It just doesnt happen . Everybody i know who has tried to change somebodys gender identity they cant do it. Reporter why is that . Over the last two years, weve stayed in touch with dozens of experts. Many of whom are increasingly intrigued by the possibility of a biological event in the womb. The brain begins to form early in the first weeks of life. Its two weeks later the genitals begin to take shape. Is it possible that at some point, signals get mixed, the brain gets one gender instruction, the anatomy gets another . One thing is clear, if theres a conflict, its the brain that will win. But dr. Spack wants everyone to know the American PsychiatricAssociation Says it is not a mental disorder to be transgender. But what is the proof of that . I think the proof was that it didnt require psychotropic medication to make it better. But that as soon as the patients were treated in the hormones of the gender that they affirm, they were instantly better. Reporter as if the brain craves a hormone the body cant produce. Caitlyn jenner says female hormones almost instantly quieted the inner conflict that caused depression. Its a tough road. Its a tough, tough road. Reporter and she says since coming out, shes been lucky to have the money to change her appearance jawline, her forehead, her breasts. And she has Just Announced in the book she has become one of the 12 of trans women who go on to get whats called final surgery. Its about whats between your ears and who you are as a person. Its your soul, okay . Reporter she writes, after much deliberation, i had the final surgery in 2017. The surgery was a success, and i feel not only wonderful but liberated. So all of you can stop staring. But i wasnt less of a woman the day before i had the surgery than i was the day after i had the surgery. Because that did not define who i am as a human being. Reporter no regrets . None whatsoever. Reporter then she issues a kind of social warning, saying this is a topic only a transgender person can bring up, and the rest of us should never ask. So how did you decide to put it in the book at all . This book is about honesty. But that doesnt mean in the future that i have to talk about it, that im going to dwell. The media may. But i am not going to dwell on that subject. You know, and i would make a suggestion to all people out there, dont ask the question. Its not an appropriate question to ask any trans person. Reporter coming up, looking back at her life and what she says may be the most unforgivable thing shes done. This is a quote from the book. If god refuses to make peace with me, this will be the primary reason. Re headed. Because as we live longer. And markets continue to rise and fall. 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And later, after he emerged, he was soon absorbed in the kardashian show. But at the time of the announcement two years ago, jenners four older children sent word they wanted to be supportive. To go on camera, to say the past is past and theyre happy to see their dads suffering gone. And i just held his hand and i cried with him, and i just told him how proud of him i was and how inspired i was. The first thing i thought was just like, it finally makes sense. Yeah. Reporter they still calling you dad . Yeah. Still calls me dad. Reporter two years ago when life held out the possibility that Caitlyn Jenner could now be present every day, in a way that bruce was not. Some i have remained very close to. And a couple of them, im a little more distant. I have to admit ill sit here and wonder, is it because of me transitioning . Or is it because their life is so busy that they dont call, like, all the time . But every parent goes through that. Ive got all these kids, all hardworking. All doing very well. Who calls the most . None of them. Nobody calls that much. I mostly reach out to them. Obviously the jenner side calls more. But they all have their own lives. Reporter so what about her life ahead . Someone new at her side . As we looked through old pictures, we saw some of the girls bruce had loved. I had this crush. And why i remember her name, this girl right here, joyce nelson. Yeah, i had a crush on her when i was in kindergarten. Yes reporter there were also the three marriages. The last one playing out in reality tv. With bruce often a kind of punching bag. Do i talk to, obviously the last one, kris, all the time . No. Shes kind of moved on. I certainly have moved on. But were fine with each other. Reporter at this point someone joins us. Older sister pam. I would love to see her have a companion someday. No idea what gender that companion would be, actually. Im not sure you a nice person. A nice person. I dont i dont see really even dating in my future. I have not been approached. Ive never been out on a date with reporter in two years . Yeah. Yeah. Never been out. I just have a lot of friends. Reporter that doesnt necessarily heal loneliness. My life revolves around my kids. And theyll be in my life until the day i die. Reporter by the way, this song was written by her son, brandon jenner, and his wife leah. Every time you fall i fall every time you cry i cry reporter and Caitlyn Jenner says she has a lesson for every parent, and an irony. She writes, if god refuses to make peace with me, that will be the reason. Theres no excuse for not being a good parent, no matter how many problems that you have. No excuse for that. Reporter and tonight, the jenner children have sent word they preferred to stay private. Instead giving us a statement, we love our father and have deep admiration for her bravery. Every has unique milestones, but we can honestly say caitlyns gender transition has brought our family closer. 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And she says she wants to concentrate now on raising money for transgender issues, her foundation and asking corporations to help more with crushing discrimination. The unemployment rate. Yeah, it just, you know, its staggering. Especially for trans women of color. Reporter do you think in your lifetime, my lifetime, that well see full acceptance . No. I dont think well ever see full acceptance. Is it going to get better . I hope so. And i hope that im part of that. I want to fight this fight. Im playing in the Fourth Quarter of life. You know . And i dont have that many years left. Reporter a sense of urgency. Its in the book. She writes, dont wait until its too late to be the person you really are with the people you really love. The dedication is to her brother who died right after the olympics and her father, her hero, a decorated soldier who landed on omaha beach. And the reason i dedicated it to them, cause theyre the only two in my family whos never heard this story. Reporter youre not worried. It wouldve broken his heart for his son my dad was a good person. A kind soul. I think the initial shock wouldve been really difficult on him. Like, huh . Hed go, what . You, what are you . But, you know and im sure hes looking down on me, watching all of this. You know, hes actually buried in arlington, washington, d. C. , national cemetery. So, yeah, hes there with all his army buddies looking down and saying, go, caitlyn. And in the end, maybe its all about widening our circle of understanding together. Experts say the most powerful way to do that is to listen to others tell their story. The book is on sale on tuesday. Im diane sawyer. For all of us at 20 20, good night. A Chester County teachers aid is charged with a despicable crime and a major city plunges into darkness. Thats next. Action news, delaware valleys leading news program with ji jim gardner. This is arthur age 67. He was a teacher aide at