It was impossible to see father ian walking alone through the monastery, he received people when he walked from the temple to the cell, this road, well, about 100 meters, he walked it sometimes for several hours, he was always surrounded such a large dense ring of people, someone tried to touch, someone tried to ask him a question, father an stopped and completely immersed himself in this man, he all understood that through him the will of god was revealed to people with this man. They take the next step and he stops again, then someone breaks through, shouts dad, ive been waiting here for the third day, and so on and so forth, he says come on, come on, come on, come on, well no, it was , it was a cross, this is a real cross, if you say so, can you imagine a saint man, if he did and did holiness , you just had to see it, in everything, in words, in. Actions, to every person who comes to me for the first confession, i tell everyone, please take a book about confessing your father nakristiankina, read, it was not some kind of formal christianity, not dry, not dried up, but alive, it was life with god, life in christ, he came here from the rostov land to pray, to honor the memory. Service, in this sense he was simply truly perfect and great, they killed his son, in ninetysix, we couldnt find it for a long time, i came here to father iann, asked him to give consolation for my wife, my mothers experiences cannot be compared with anything. Because the mother carries the child under her heart and she feels much more and more than her , of course, its difficult. Father ian allowed me to record this on camera, his instruction for you, dear father, for mother valentina. For the whole existence of paul, for the servant of god peter, and your second from the eldest son, so a constant prayer is offered, you know, so he told, as if right here in front of her sits as if hes talking to her, heres the immersion, in the person who came to him, whats there, whats the trouble . I hope that like this mother, overcoming hers so deeply. Forcing her to worry, apparently , her experience will remain until her death hour, yes, because this is a maternal feeling, a special feeling, and he did not say that he died there, so that somehow he would not hurt her, he said again , here you go. To trust god, you must accept that the lord is his, so to speak, providence. Lord, my god, you know everything, your love is perfect, take my life, the unknown son of paul, do what i long for, but cannot. I will be filled with complete living faith that god has no dead, everyone is alive, in 1998 we were walking through the monastery, suddenly a priest was walking, he came up and said where the group from ryazan was from, oh my ryazan people have arrived. I was in heaven, with his service, such was his service, he himself, he himself took off, and in the summer people came, traveled from all the villages, and my father and my mother were happy when he suddenly appeared in kosemi, everyone people who go to Church Listen to him pray, how he bless, nothing, there was nothing unusual here that oh how is this. This is being done. Father ioan said that even though i am the rector, my soul is a church cleaning lady who worries that all the ribbons are ironed, that all the flowers are fresh, that everything is neat, clean. He changed five parishes in the diocese of brizan, and in one of them they committed such a crime against him. Extinguishing komsomol members, also according to the teachings of the glasty, they simply attacked him in the house, tied him up with electric wires, and so they very tightly left him to die, like him supervised one might say, they drove him to different parishes, not allowing him to take root anywhere. But as a result, it turned out that the entire ryazan region became his spiritual children; the church has adopted the following unspoken rule if you go to your confessor with a question, then be prepared to accept the answer and fulfill it. When i graduated from music school , i turned to my mother, first with a question mom, i really. Want to go to the maina theater, to the conservatory, my heart was very eager, everything worked out, but father aan, reasoning, advised me to enter the seminary, i went to second shelf reserved seat pskov, moscow, i shed tears, there was certainly an internal struggle, without it any obedience is impossible, that is, you must go through some kind of internal test. And the lord, little by little, blessed your servant to become a deacon of the Russian Orthodox church. I was already somehow familiar to the secular world, that is, i published tsvetaeva, nabokov, berdyaev, but he told me maybe i should do something more serious . We made tamudai, reverend makari, a ladder, the chronicle of the seraphimdeevey hermitage, we busied ourselves at night materials, something was being taken out at night, i called several moscow priests, one was an archimandre, another a humen, someone a proter. At 2 00 a. M. People 8 10 a. M. Stood up for prayer and prayed, father ian there prayed and covered it. I drove up to the printing house, loaded up, turned off the headlights, called these points and said all clear, people stopped praying , then for a while, with the blessing of father ian, i generally went to the bottom, that is, i started every new day with someone i knew , if they had discovered something, then they would have imprisoned him. The committees observation was we are going out into corridor, in the corridor there was a washbasin , he turns on the water to full , we both lean over the washstand, he speaks in my ear, i answer in his ear, what book am i making next, in what edition, thanks to these books he has expanded his spiritual nourishment by a large number , this monument is like a living one, i even want to come here, its a very good monument. We will have a temple, one of the first, we hope in his honor. Father ioan wrote wonderful weather has established itself on the vovzhsky coast, warm sunny, russian Golden Autumn is pleasing encourages everyone, everything is fine with me, i rejoice, i am in good spirits, i thank the lord for everything. He was trusted here to carry water. Russia was extraordinarily important to him, extraordinarily important, he was a russian man. And the pain of russia, its trials, they passed through him in the literal sense of the word. The most powerful thing i heard from him was, russia , be what christ needs you to be, and this is what he professed all his life. By sprinkling water, everything consecrated in the name of the father and son of the holy spirit, amen, is blessed and illuminated by the entire monument. At some point i thought about how to create an image. Which is so multilayered, which is modern, old, and i came up with such a plot, it is called a dialogue in time, where on the one hand the icon painter paints the image of the virgin mary, on the other hand a selfportrait of a contemporary artist, where the background of the icon merges with the real consideration. I was such a cunning young artist who was accepted into all sorts of exhibitions, and i was at the allunion exhibition, this is when 50 people sit, and artists from all over the soviet union bring paintings you vote for, against, for, against, and i got bored in this exhibition when all. The day you look at hundreds of paintings kaliningrad, house on the left, horse on the right, vladivostok, house on the right, horse on the left, and i went to yaroslavl after that, and i think , but how can it be, thats why everything is the same, but i live in yaroslavl, how does yaroslavl differ from this, there must be something more important, i came all excited with this thought, i stood there somehow discuss there over some port wine with friends that somehow something needs to happen somehow. We live in a very luxurious city, i need to look for some kind of origins here, and suddenly it dawns on me , friends came to me, i took them to the temple or the prophet, and i say, these are the origins, i suddenly discover that these are the origins, you have to look here, us in yaroslavl, the 16th century, luxurious, the best, that is , this is the latest school of icon painting this is the yaroslavl icon, so russian. Yaroslavl is a city of creative rift, here some fluids come out of the earth that force people to be creative. Engage in creativity not only in music or in some other profession, in anything, lets do this one like this, it doesnt have this bar, but i dont play it, im catching you, you start here, lets do it again, lets do it again, so that its square, in fact, its very difficult for relatives to be within the same ensemble. With my dad, these troubles, they have been going on for the last 25 years, its probably going to the complex, yes, why didnt i go into pediatric surgery, for example, it would have been much easier for me, my dad is a doctor of sciences, he went into pediatric surgery there, everything, career forward, all that stuff, everyone treated me well too dad, but it doesnt matter when youre inside dad s structure, and its another thing when youre in a different structure, its the same with music, but it was important for me to prove that im not a sheep, and i had to drink a quarter of a glass out of. A glass and sat down and played. Why is jazz interesting . To me, there is freedom there, there are no boundaries. Mom wanted me to study at a music school, she was very musical, she dreamed of being an operetta actress, during the war she worked in a workshop and drilled or polished shells, dad came with all wounded front, well, we lived, in general, quite poorly, and at this moment my mother bought an old piano from one merchant family, well, from the heirs, this piano in the apartment in which we lived, it did not fit through the doors, it they brought me in with a crane, they stuck me through the window, and i started practicing on this genche. And it grabbed me so much when i heard all these sounds, i came home, turned on the receiver, there was a receiver in f, i turned it endlessly, i think for something, i finally found it there, i dont know, maybe through week i i found a station that broadcast jazz, it was a delight, in general it was just, it was just a delight, i was torn from this music. During my first year at the medical institute, there was a piano in the auditorium, the lecture ended, i sat down and began to play one such popular melody, suddenly my hand leaned over my shoulder and my bare feet started playing the piano for me, and it was definitely perfect, it turned out to be a sophomore. Who was passionate about jazz and played the trumpet, and we immediately made a quartet, a jazz quartet at the medical institute, and then i made an ensemble called 1, i understood that we must develop, that we must learn, that i assembled a drummer, a bassist, i was and was a trumpeter, yaroslavsky, quite good. Musicians, but i understood that we must to attract someone else, that is, to do plus one, and we began, i began to invite musicians, first ours. Presenters, and then, when the opportunity arose, i began to invite foreigners there, mostly americans, i deliberately invited people who were always stronger than us, it was selfstudy, i started playing at School Rock Band on the keyboard, in the tenth grade i began to write myself, and this is practically rock music, which is very close to jazz, in such a composition saxophanie was necessary. Medical practice, we recorded a record and we traveled around russia , presented it, after that we went to a festival in israel, after that i went back to arkhangelsk, played three concerts, then we went on a big tour, which i organized with ray brown , this is synzhal, then we started touring, touring, touring, everything went on for a long time, but fate you stopped me, so youre discharging me, well, we did everything we could, then well continue on our own, do you really not want to go back to work . Irrevocably resolutely, listen to me, you will put the bradin nikolai yurich in his place , accused kulipov, you admit your guilt, no, i dont admit it, this is my wife marina, and this is tamara, my new boss, now very pleasant, slefosovsky from antonnik on rtr, i still have pain here, here it hurts and. Here it hurts, this disease never manifests itself acutely, it creeps up gradually, to be healthy, the most important thing is to remember the principle of three points. This, by the way, is officially proven to be proper nutrition. How to properly deal with stress . You need to choose those foods that are not harmful to eat. The right medications, run to the doctor. This medicine is like crutches and correct habits for us. Shouldnt we slap some kefir, and im not afraid of this word, our health, about the most important thing , on tuesday on rtr, im 40 years old and im a lonely loser, nadyusha, we decided to rent out your room. And im alexey, your new jerk, mom, sex, how many children do you want, and this has something to do with utilities, good rooms, decent women, do you want to get to know me better, please, dont give up so easily, admit that you just dont like him, or vice versa, do you like him . I have no time for novels right now, i wont be able to respond to your sympathy, but i dont have any sympathy for you, lyosha, who is this . This is alexeys legal wife, a decent family will rent out a room on friday at rtr. Mom had a number of serious state awards, she was the best among the nomads, a factory of the october revolution, and its said that golenova, we want to nominate you as a hero of socialist labor, but we know one thing. You have such a sin, you go to church, you decide, because we cant do it there, this is in no way compatible with this, mom she said, ill be in. Nikolai, it worked out great, lets teach someone else what you need for this, i then began to create the yaroslavl icon school. I raised artists who believed in me, who became masters with whom we painted churches in russia and abroad. At ninety in the sixth year, a competition was held for the right to paint the cathedral of christ the savior. I took first place. The winner of the competition had the right to choose the subject; the main altar composition was the nativity of christ. And it was written by vasily. At one time in that temple that was destroyed, so i chose this plot, you had to understand what verishchagin was doing, and you must be partly verishchagin, you even know, there were some miracles, downstairs in the cathedral of christ the savior, there is a museum there when vasily vasilyevich was old, he wrote the same composition, so i ran into this sample, his late ones, and one person came up to me and said i see, youve been photographing something here for an hour, and so one day some guy turned out to be right there in the right place where he needed it was exactly at that moment, 4 months i was painting the picture of the nativity of christ, i love to draw christmas very much, i paint it in all the churches, thank god, the most important plot, easter , yes i understand everything, the crucifixion is scary, but i understand, but. This is immortality, but the appearance of a savior is the most important thing, out of darkness, you know how, how big explosion, the universe was created, christ was born, the universe was created inside mine, here, for a day, i was on duty as an emergency vascular surgeon in the region. They brought me a woman at night, she was a variable , it wasnt a very complicated operation, but it had to be done urgently, she was forty weeks pregnant, that is, she was about to give birth, everything had to be done on another patient, i operated on it, in the morning i was with dads anniversary concert and it was as if goloshchokin and butman had arrived, Alexey Alekseevich kuznetsov was here, i met them in the morning, in general, suddenly i was here the right half of my body was paralyzed, i had a stroke, i should have done it sooner. Recently, one nun told me listen , you need to become a monk, but this is not my path, really, i serve differently, i heal people, some woman wrote to me that she had some kind of lymphatic edema, and could i help her, i said that i was suffering a stroke, she said, at least