video and i want to play a little bit of it, because fending -- defending on what time frame you came into that video, people had different opinions. but we see a woman smack your mask and you reacted in self-defense and you had fallout from that including being suspended from your job without pay, having your life threatened. so today how are you feeling and what has happened since that day? >> that day definitely took a toll on my life. i never expected it to happen. since then i've been trying to collect and get my life together. trying to move forward from that situation because i did get a lot of negative feedback. so i just want to move forward. i've changed career paths and i want to do something that i'm passionate about. so i'm no longer in the security field. and i'm just trying to move forward. hopefully i don't get a lot of