went to work. and i had meetings, and i had reports i had to give. and i just functioned as if nothing had happened. and it's very abnormal to do that right. if you had a death in the family, or you are going through something, you would take time off of work. and everyone would support you, and say take your time, come back when you're ready. but because we feel like we can't share, i think we kind of push through life. as if you are not experiencing the loss, and the agony. it goes with feeling just so alone. so i think it's absolutely absurd. >> and somehow, you know, it's that whole veil of around women's fertility, what women are experiencing monthly. honestly, i know we say this, but if men were experiencing periods we would have a week off. [laughs] they would all be sync up, we would have a week off every month. it would be call menstruation, day or week. and we would be talking about it so openly.