and i had some experiences that were challenging, even when i was a teenager, with that focus. you know, being--she's too heavy, she's too skinny, she's too--you know, i think that kind of just got into my head, that it became more about that. and it was never comfortable for me. - mm. - never comfortable. - being an actor in la is one of the most narcissistic professions there is. it's all about who likes me, how do i look, do you want me, will you hire me? it's all just me, me, me, me, me. but you shifted from a career that was all about me to a career that was all about you, that's all about taking care of people, that's all about serving other people. what does that feel like? - amazing. such a relief. i was just like... [sighs] it's amazing. - ari is now a labor and delivery nurse and postpartum doula, helping families through this terrifying