then you will be happy. - mm-hmm. - right? if you get enough followers on instagram or tiktok, or if enough people watch this show-- only to find that the more you get, the less happy you are and the farther you are from it. - i think you do experience happiness, but you obviously admit that you struggle with it. - mm-hmm. - and i'm surprised, because it's all right there in front of you. it's right here. - all the ingredients are there. - but isn't that one of the hardest parts about it, is that you know it's right there-- - yeah. - and it feels like it's just out of reach. - it's funny you say that. because every place i went, i was kind of like, i could be happy here. - which, when you're traveling the world, you're also going to some places that don't have the same level of intersection of capitalism, and materialism, and status, and all of these things. so the question is, like, how do you take what you learned traveling the world--