mike: i was surprised by the anger that was directed at my news organization and, in particular, me. this comes from a guy who hasn't even bothered to read what i wrote. he's told me that. spath: i hope and pray that none of you ever have to be faced with a situation where you're forced to fire your weapon and take a life. none of us asked for it. none of us want that. but the every day possibility is there. it'll never go away. my shooting will never go away. it's with me every day of my life. natacha: okay, listen. i feel like he didn't have to do what he did, and i'll always feel that way. i can never wrap my mind around the fact that someone fears for their lives, chasing after someone and shooting at someone that has never shot at them, has never threatened them physically, you know. i try to understand why it happened, but