gotten under way. the street clothes he's allowed to wear in court are a painful reminder of all he's lost. >> these are my work clothes. this is my life. this was what i looked like out on street. this was who i was. the judge in his case has not allowed cameras in the courtroom and holbrook has been advised not to discuss the proceedings, but he is bracing himself. >> i have been preparing mentally for the worst. which is obviously going to prison. but i don't think anybody can truly prepare themselves 100% for what that's going to be like. >> ready? >> every day after court, holbrook returns to his maximum security housing unit.