morning. >> he was shocked. -- but what about the diaries, as prosecutor wagner said in the cross-examination. they wanted to learn the real motive for murder. >> and you, on various times, ruminated on -- >> i was -- >> why? >> because it'll bite me now instead of being truthful. it would bite me. >> had he never been charged, had he never thrown those diaries away. >> where did you keep them? >> it was my history together. it wasn't to be thrown away. >> you even admitted that -- he must of been in viral >> yes. -- i got tired of being hit. so -- and i'm the bad guy. >> well, was he?