had to do in my career. and i can't tell you the feeling that we all had. we broke down in tears. >> but why would anyone want to kill amyjane of all people? >> i was crushed. like how is this even possible? i was speechless. and then i just sat crying in the bathroom for probably the next hour like not understanding, like craziness. >> as word spread through amyjane's church family, so did the questions. high school youth pastor chris thatcher. early on was there any indication of who may have been responsible? >> i don't think anybody had any idea. i think that's what made this so hard is that so many of us, we know each other. we're family here. >> but there was the dismal work to do. lieutenant caldera returned to the motel where amy was murdered. it would be pretty hard for you to take part in an active investigation. >> no, i wouldn't have. i couldn't have.