to get back to normal and -- >> or something like it. >> a big word that always hangs over the room is closure and i'm not sure what that means. >> there were difficult moments for the birgfeld's during the murder trial, like the first time they heard the frightened voicemail messages of their grandchildren. >> hi, mom. you said you would be back last night and you're not even back today. bye. >> and i would tell you that was a hard part. >> that was the hardest for me. >> there is almost a recognition that you're in trouble, please don't be in trouble, please come home to us. >> and then there was the day planner when the sweet mundane details of paige's life and those of her children were made real once more. the family nights, soccer games, the dance recitals and birthday parties and library visits, they were all there, the precious,