was doing the right thing, and loyalty is something i do feel, especially towards hillary clinton. she's always been loyal to me. i will always be loyal to her, and the certainly has been tested over the years. >> that note is so strange in its clairvoyance that you would run into. i don't want to ask you about your marriage, but i want to ask you about a slightly different question, which is 11 days before the 2016 election, the emails, the laptop, the interesting part that you write about in the book, you telling your husband, quote, if she loses this election, it will be because of you and me. has your thinking evolved from that? >> yes. a lot of the explanation about me in the last two decades is what is wrong with her and what is she thinking. it's why the book is long and i share exactly what i was thinking through these periods. here we were and the mission was the election and for her to win. anthony and i had obviously grown all of these incredible trials thinking that we could somehow affect the election.