But its hard when youre in that position to have to take care of somebody. I asked a lot from her. I think in those moments, it feels impossible. It feels like, what is the solution . Youre trying and trying and trying, and it keeps happening over and over, and its frustrating. But its like anything. With persistence and time, change comes. chiming i think its important to have someone that keeps you accountable. Daniel heres the refrigerator. Okay. So you got food. Yeah. Is that old or new . Nah, thats new. Thats chorizo and eggs. Oh, okay. Okay. And your bathroom light works . switches clicking, fan running nothing broken, nothing. No. How about we, you know, maybe sweep and mop, just a little bit . Uh. You have dust there. Yeah. What are those . Shoes . Yeah. voiceover i dont like home visits. They be all in your business. But i deal with it, and i go through it, and i give em two thumbs ups, because hey, im that type of guy. beeping 387. 387. I ate, though. When . At the dropin center. Those are very high numbers. Do you know the consequences of high blood sugars . Yeah, i know. Uh. voiceover i just get real depressed after a while. Doing the same old muted every day, in and out. Thats get boring. I just want to be by myself all the time. And i dont answer my phone. That was the only thing that brings me joy drinking. Man you gotta be here. Daniel okay, ill be here tomorrow. Man okay. whispering thats cause i hate that muted class. Byrne what class is it . Its a drug class. cause they know i smoke weed. They tell me slow down if i can, but i be, like, yeah, all right. And then with me, sometimes, when i want to talk to somebody, i feel like its gonna be a dumb conversation, so i just keep it to myself. Byrne and what happens when you keep it to yourself . Daniel it feels like youre all alone. Doctor are you still smoking . Daniel yeah. Thats bad. Can we eventually stop . Okay, ill try. people talking in background byrne how do you feel about them asking you all those questions . I know how to talk, you know . I dont be trippin. What does that mean . I know how to finesse and maneuver, so ill be straight. So you mean youre telling them what they want to hear. Basically. But its still truth in that muted . Thats why my Blood Pressure be so high. phone ringing voiceover its him, its good news. Mm, mm. Byrne whos that . Uh, my boy with them things. What things . X pills. Youre taking x . Yeah. Do you want me to stop filming . Its up to you i was gonna ask you, if i gave you gas money, would you take me . You worry me, you know . You worry me. Im glad you worry about me. That lets me know you care. No, im not taking you. Why not . Please. He ask me bring him shoes or some jacket. Hes already for one month in nursing home. Theyre not allowed to have the string. Two day ago, they transfer him to mental hospital. I dont know what exactly happen. And he was really hoping somebody go visit him there and whatever, but. Nobody. No brother. Youre filming him, thats why you, youre around him. Hello. We come to visit dimitar ivanov. Hes in mental unit. Dimitar i had some homicidal thoughts, and i was honest with the staff. But, like, i was just testing my boundaries, just like with a substitute teacher. Gina one day ill be tired, ill die. Ill give up on you, and i dont want to give up on you, but. Byrne so you think youll be released tomorrow, they say . Dimitar i think so. Gina okay, well see. Dimitar tada. Gina in bulgarian sighing i did call. Let me see. You dont believe me . Gina in bulgarian dimitar in bulgarian muttering they discharge you . What did they say . Why dont you call them and find out . Theyre supposed to call me. Why are they supposed to call you . The paperwork is in the coat pocket behind you. Behind you. quietly what are you thinking . Why do you want to know what im thinking . Are you scared of me . Right now, or. In general. Sometime. Why . Because you are acting. Weird . Sometime. Weird or crazy . Both. Im still your son. You are, i never stop loving you. I never stop. Trying to do something for you. Did you find the paperwork . No. Here, watch out. Heres my discharge paperwork. See, signed, signed by everybody. From hospital they dont call me to let me know, they just discharge him. Byrne do you have to go to work today . Yeah. How do you feel about leaving him here . Not comfortable. hiphop music playing loudly water running music continues in background byrne what are you doing . Profilaktika, profilaktika music continues in background music stops dimitar we can sit on the couch for a minute and just, just unwind a little bit so i can go to sleep. Byrne yeah, you should go to sleep. Feel better . Yeah. Angela on phone i havent been over my ten minutes. No, i dont want to switch. That phone works. Okay, are you recording . Byrne yeah. Okay. Ive been refusing medication because its against my beliefs. Istarted back smoking pcp, i came and i detoxed without the help of any chemicals to help me. Byrne did the court order today for you to take lithium . Yes, they did, margaret, yes, they did. And do you know how angry i was . I was so angry, i actually told him, muted him. And of course, that made me look even more unstable, by me telling the judge, muted him. Yeah. But ill talk to you later. Okay, call me again. call ends im going to look for daniel. text sent i dont know where he is. Ill go see if hes at his apartment. I know he wouldnt mess that up. text sent text sent knocking text sent cellphone chiming text sent gonna write him a note. You can look so ordinary, or you can appear to not have anything wrong with you. And then when those times come, its not pretty. Its, its something you want to look away from. Probably with every sort of episode ive had, ive lost friends or colleagues. I dont think we can look away from whats bad. So why would i look away from them when theyre going through the hardest time . Its why theres people on the street, because everybodys looked away from them and said, i cant. gina sighs so, i got a call from probation saying they threatened to violate me on three different things. On, uh, not completing my Substance Abuse classes, not paying restitution, and, uh, not completing my Community Service. You dont have to think, you just have to do it. Right . keys clatter no, i dont. Whats the point . I cant get a job. What think you should do . You should start going some classes. Im not going to any classes. slamming objects im not going to any muted classes. Gina see, all summer, he was in all these hospital. So basically, he was not stable to, to go classes and stuff. I dont think they care. cellphone chiming uh, daniel brown. woman responds i want some of these. Yeah. Byrne will you tell me about when i couldnt find you . Daniel aw, man, i had lost my phone. muted stole my phone, actually. I lost my bus card and my keys. oncamera and i want a cabbage. voiceover ended up staying with a friend, drinking. oncamera all right. voiceover but i always made it to my weekly appointments with my case worker so i wouldnt lose my apartment. I finally told them i lost my keys, and they gave me an extra set. I know, in the beginning of this year, you know, you had some issues with just losing things and getting them stolen. Yeah. How have you been with that . Ive been working on it. I mean, you havent told me anything recently, but. Yeah, ive been doing better. laughs okay. Ive been doing much better. And then you gave your emergency keys to your nephew . Yeah, my nephew. Okay, i just want to make sure that, you know, youre taking care of yourself and staying safe. Brigitte he was drifting and getting off into trouble with the wrong people he know it. We calling you, no answer. Phone going straight to voicemail. Okay, we going over there; i said, call the police when you get there. I do not want to find my brother dead in the house. Somethings wrong. And we went all over looking for him. Then he just called one day out the blue. Like, you dont do your family like that. He crazy, though hes kinda off, you know that . laughing see . Like right now you see him . Get quiet and still and just stare off into space. Yeah, thats daniel. Angela i called junior and asked him could i rent a room. Staying with a ex is hard. Byrne so you arent back together . No. No, were not back together. They did give me a timeframe of custody over anthony, and they gave me a year. This is a letter that says the court has granted an expungement on these cases right here. So right now, im waiting on another psychological evaluation. Every time i came into these hospitals, i was under the influence of pcp. Im realizing that im a different person while im abusing these drugs. Byrne when do you feel like you really had this realization . The Second Time Around losing my parental rights. But i just realized i keep on falling to this same track. You look good. Thank you. Violet um, what kind of meatballs are those . Byrne good meatballs made from chicken. voiceover success does not just look like one thing. Success is a journey. Ill say, filming with all of them is what made me go back to therapy. I thought, well, if they are having to take care of themselves, then i also have to do the same. Daniel im an ambassador for up here, so im gonna stay outside and sign people up for the moving on program. Man oh, hey, im with it. Yeah, come on, ill sign you up right now. voiceover i work two days a month now as an ambassador for the program that helped me move out. Man how long do you think itll take to move . Ive seen people get out of here in seven months. All right, cool, im gonna turn this in to my boss. Let me check my schedule, see if i have his new schedule. Nice to meet you, too. Nice to meet you, man. Yep. Hey, ill sign up for sure. All right, friday. All right. Yep. Byrne i see you looking over there. I know, thats where they at. I aint finna go over there. How come youre not going over there . cause i dont feel like being around all that weed. They got weed for me when i get back to oak park. voiceover to myself, im, like, a success story. I started out homeless, went and got a crib. Ive been on the bottom, and now i feel like im a part of the human being race. Can i call you chief . Yeah, you can call me chief. Dimitar i decided to finish my probation requirements and complete my Community Service hours. It was the only option left. Although my mind is plagued, when i look deep down inside, i honestly find love, selfrespect, and hope for the future. I dont lose sleep over the crimes i committed. I do over consequences. Enlightenment is addicting. Im an addict. Angela now i actually feel like a whole totally different person. Its been over a year since ive used any drugs. Now ive been in therapy, you know, for about six months. That actually seems to help, to be able to talk about my problems. And frankly, theres nothing to be ashamed of. I realize im not the only one whos been diagnosed with a Mental Health problem. And people wouldnt feel so alone. Byrne i think you are brave to tell your story. I think i figured out that the things that ive worked so hard to hide dont need to be hidden. That theres power in connecting. They very much have been friends to me. Angela im just trying to just take one day at a time. Daniel every day, its a struggle. You dont ever know what the next day holds. Byrne all of our days will continue on after this movie. Its gonna be okay, mom, its gonna be okay. Dimitar life sometimes is sad. And sometimes its chaotic. But sometimes life is peachy. Del toro stay up to date on america reframed at worldchannel. Org. 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