face the allure of stardom. and i fell face firs first intt. glitter. and i'm only just pulling myself out now. but once i stopped drinking on and taking drugs, it becamee abl clear that there was a lotithe more on offer, the ability to , in fact, as they say, recovery,v the term recovery is undergirded by the idea that we recover the person we'reautiu intended to be. l and this idea of intention, i think is rather beautiful. because when you live in a nihilistic post, rationalistic, materialistic, world where there can be noy or telos, where there can be no glory, where there can be noantb meaning, none of us are meant to be anything but the idea that there might be a purpose, , that there might be somethingths that you can become this. d i found this idea very engaging and very comforting. and to be honest, it also engaged the more ego and narcissistic aspect of men e that i could achieve something's in my life. but as time has gone on , there's been there's an ongoing tension between thoseort individual achievement and a sort of an ongoing desire for recognition, plaudits, butstands