my life i have words. i have words to be able to talk to my husband and my kids and my grandkids about what i go through. and we have hidden shame for too long. forget that. i'm trying to create a huge team together. brian: depression is a gray area. people say suck it up, and life will get better. >> your speed dial to the who's who in the history of sports. so what could be sphwhrong. >> i wake up every single morning of my life thinking the sky is calling and the world is crashing in around me. even though it doesn't make sense. i have to fight back against that. now i want to coach everybody out there to do the same thing. we have to walk this walk.