weeks after the alter which is follow-up show that kind of catches up with you about a year later. i from a job perspective i have had opportunities and this has become a point of conversation sometimes with hr sometimes with -- management because in my line of work i've been a director and vp of marketing i have to talk to customers, and you know some express concerns about that and being a i believe to pivot a conversation back to business. kat: if i had a camera on me all of the time i don't know if i would come off looking i don't know if any of us would. i don't know this and i'm sure no one does because they weren't there what was a typical day of filming love is blind like? >> it is a pretty torturous process you're isolated in your hotel room few days before leaving without access to food and water without any opportunity to leave your rule without permission because you don't have a key or id you don't have -- >> no food and water? >> no.