hard. the fact that he was a chief law enforcement officer in delaware, he wasn't out there literally, he'd go on patrol, he wasn't out there walking up those stairs to make that arrest or try to stop that fight. it was always about family. it's like losing a piece of your soul. some of you still have that feeling like you've been sucked into a black hole in your chest wondering, my god, will it ever change? sergeant mclane from detroit, decorated for exemplary service for his career, he turned down promotions so he could work as a mentor for other officers in his district. every two weeks he'd send his wife flowers at work like clock