we think that your life is over. you think that you are not going to have the same quality in life. i had to deal with that sitting in the hospital room by myself with nothing but your thoughts. we start rationalizing and prioritizing things in your life. you set attainable goals. when you build goals like that and you can start meeting them, it takes away the negativity of the healing process. >> sergeant goudie wanted to keep fighting. just a year later he was ready to deploy again. >> when i had come back from walter reed after all the surgeries in 2012 i signed back into work on january of 2013. i think the difficulties of deploying with an injury first starts with your mental outlooking able to prove to yourself that you can do it and instill the confidence and trust in your teammates that you are an asset, not a liability. i think that was most difficult. >> john is always the person that's going to tell you it's