A bit of that but. How much time does it take her place to become indelibly marked on one some. Odd. Colors sends a few photos and dreamlike. Images thats all i have left from the first seven years of my life in kazakstan. After that my family emigrated to germany and never returned. Twenty five years later my mother and now nst she would go back with her sister for a visit i decided to accompany them. Planted africas banana as lean to see my son in south africa ten thousand kilometers away why cant i go to color tan my husband said he wouldnt go there. With him i met up with my sister and told her id love to go back to carol tell him visit the grave down on fallon im fuckin scrapped. The person dearest to my mothers heart was undoubtably her father a vogue a german who was deported to siberia during the Second World War a truck driver who quickly fell in love with the wide open spaces of the steps. And that there was this mountain making moment then had there and sometimes he took me with him he asked me if i wanted to drive i said yes so he sat me down gave me the Steering Wheel and i drove the truck has been helpful you just have to drive straight ahead you dont need an office skill im driving and driving and then i look over and see my dad has his eyes closed as if hes sleeping and now theres a car heading towards us i say daddy daddy wake up this is where i had my first driving experiences. Yet its a bill to the buyer my father loved giving gifts if i was sick i was always happy because i knew my father would bring me a gift has been his above. Yet is bullshit. He was very kind hearted. And my mother was strict she raised as and he brought his present. Since. That was my upbringing it was the blood. And then football with this one of the ball then he died my mother was the only one then all that remained was the strict upbringing and the belief that. Was it maybe thats why i have such special memories of my relationship with my father he loved me very much and i loved him very very much. When he died i thought my life was over still living as it launches. Like the little boy this new girl sometimes we get snow here in the winter well not a single snowflake holes there this is carrot town. Nothing nothing im anti out of are you excited. My skin is on. It just. Cant get it i know what the fish i feel Different Things sometimes side well up so many memories are coming back to me and it didnt matter ill find everything at once her family here that leaped up to. Our left here at forty seven and now at seventy one im coming back on them in front of me. On the. I dont know i have quite a different feeling here that. My mother was eight when her family moved from siberia to cairo tower the town by the Black Mountains in kazakhstan swarm south in one thousand nine hundred with her family she left the town which had a population of forty thousand at the time. Today its home to just twenty thousand people or so apart from a few friends from his school days my mother doesnt know anyone in cairo tallon a more. Current town the green always is in the middle of the steps the clean affluent soviet showpiece town what has become of. The apartment block with the circular staircase and people here were once proud of this modern building it was home to many young families what defines the town scape today. Where and how do the people here live in. The square in front of the white house its the town hall and a Parade Ground where the red flags were once waved with pride all for one and one for all. Wheres the. Pride and patriotism today where are the others and where are we. Not only have the thought. That. The germans have been gone for twenty four twenty five years everythings rundown now there were roads everyone was always surprised by how nice it was here the roads were surfaced and it was green. Well. The wrong. Way it wasnt. Even your mom or your girlfriend. Are dealing with back to your favorite how was the drive how are you alec is here. Look. I didnt realize i was driving them to you until i reached her time and more and. I brought you a key from tashkent the gulper. One for the girl and those for the boys. These are National Ones we dont have them in kazakhstan but one. Gentleman on t. A. D. S. Bought seven or eight all for her grandchildren. Theres a chance that if theyre. That. Good you used to live here yes. Our fellow countrymen thank you nice to see. The sea but. Dont wish us to go all we taking pictures of the house. With the idea that yes well walk around everywhere that. Youll. Come in and be our guest. I know that were cut off but not whole we have you come from from germany. But what turn she is from for time for. You on why you encounter did you live here once we used to live here that. Was it. That bad. That. You have to suppress and i was a bit worried that locals would be wary of all that we wouldnt be so well received if in from the so called of. The National Park you know by name sufficient vecchi far as i know so many people left and then things got bad here things were falling apart in the soviet state many people were suffering badly i was worried wed be associated with that we for can if with all were doing well and here theyre doing badly. If theyd only did the good there or even are all different because were destroying one slow version of the good you know that there were you know. That i took the margin to the whole of it thats all i remember im just not prepared for your prose it was from the heart thank you. We want expected to be greeted so warmly even though we left the bush you must love the family well youre going to be. One of the really right you have no idea we missed the five thousand greeks five thousand germans and ten thousand russians the first twenty thousand people where you understand even though both keep it that whats this chile weve been watching it we miss it thats why we came. Here to. Tell you what we will want to hear what you feel with one million views for the. Yes so. Sit down with the. Who would mean that. This is done stand up big. I did not tell you rena the three of us come the only candidate who sings in german. What. If the car that got out of line is a good player. But. The germans left in the hope of finding a new home in germany the home our ancestors left in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries they followed the call of bizarre as to move to the russian empire and they built german towns on the volga and in the caucasus they worked hard and prospered during the communist era they were dispossessed and in the Second World War they were deported to siberia. And. As an orphan my grandfather my fathers father earned his living there in a mine he started a family and moved to fertile kazakstan together with other german seeking to start over. There was a mine here to. Live. Your. Life to. The story of the deportation the new beginnings the stories of the mind those were the fairy tales of my childhood. The moral of the story work hard work a lot and do no wrong. The germans lived in the russian empire for five generations they kept their culture and language alive even though they faced persecution and discrimination. Then communism collapsed and half of the town left the fact that nobody was allowed to take along any money for their new beginning in germany didnt stop anyone those who stayed experience because it stands economic collapse very directly. No water no light no security. The ninetys were a dark time for car a town. The abandoned houses were mined for anything that could be either burned or put to use. In an impulse of the survivor state run a mom and we knew he was dying my mother my sister and brother was sitting next to him i was younger and was playing in the summer house with my nieces holes to speed and lets listen and. It was still light outside because it was the twenty first of june six oclock in the evening suddenly this dog started howling it wouldnt stop her from tori nearly robbed us of i immediately had this plan and sensed that my father had passed its crystal open. Do you feel closer to your father here yeah. Yes i think says that versa. I feel really happy here as if my dad were wrong here i cant explain it. Thats a point but will happen when someone dies the spirit leaves. Us out of the and i can think of the men stiff and fifty of the guys there must be something i dont know. Ross macphee life maybe hes looking down from heaven and seasons. Sees me standing here with his granddaughter open for them as if. That would make him happy. Those that didnt get funding. For the show that we got. Our driver this insists on inviting us to his home the traditional meal served to guests is prepared over several days it includes fresh mutton. Stay. With me to go with them will grow their aluminum over women and. I love that one is good right. But for the one you know. My mothers family settled in well when they moved from. Siberia to cover a town thousands of germans were already living here they had much in common german language the forbidden lutheran bible songs from the homeland there was no better place than car a town thats what my mother felt at the time. Indeed the strasser want in part from the incident for and we had friends and relatives on every street. Is there are about fifty five when i was done with work i would visit someone i would visit a friend or my sister or another sister or another friend the friend and since i was its force i walked every way it was lovely it was the norm this lawsuit the norm. If they stick around with us i feel like im not really here im just dreaming. Its on the last names. When she was twenty my mother started her own family. Together with my father ryan hold a german from her neighborhood the soviets called it west berlin. Thought it was a good war and you dont need a billion neighbors. Like us did. I just. Had. This ladies from germany she used to live here shed lodge take some pictures to remember this place of course come in even if you dont want. To. Leave the onus on home. Ok ill just look around this well. This is really your mother bird really did not know what your son would say look for her little difficult little son a little difficult the sooner you start to things just to let him sleep to sleep with. Her you know. How they are given that. It. Was fun and this was just the entrance that got the school on its soil there was this little fence and different varieties of grapes grew that. The folks at the open air for say that. The fans went round here and there was the pergola. And the grapes grow up here. Everything was green. Because thats where we planted the potatoes and tomatoes over there. Of the different vegetables such as peppers onions all kinds of things. That were grapes here under pergola. We sometimes had a caught where we could sleep in the. Form of the office and shaphan conference or so. I remember we slept there in the summer yes we slept here oh yes and he grapes until we fell asleep. Yeah thats the part where you happy here yeah thats for sure it was nice. In the evening we always had these what are they called cricket is yes cricket it was very hot jaring the day and sometimes it was hot in the evenings it would come down from the mountains as if from an oven the constant and back and concise and of no one. But when youre young that doesnt bother you much but in london with the smith fidels. Here. There was a table here we always sat here in the evenings eating and drinking talking and laughing to laugh for not. His horse and all that give all this little house was then transformed into a summer house we cooked there in the summers not in the house because it was too hot. But i dont have a cell for model s. And for avant thats why i sometimes burnt the food to the children where theyre having their afternoon nap my mum coming out auburns my husband came home in the evening at six i was cooking i ran in and out and by the time i was back it was burnt what was i to do swaps full brunt of also this law muscle with my. Sides but there was time before my husband came home and i didnt want to put it any way you could see it so i dug a hole and started over it and they were from one way to cook it. There on that line i want to live a little bit dont just run around and then this dog brought my husband a piece of meat i had buried them in. Often sticks in the phone with. Us. As a form of the monster and you cant hide anything from my husband not even now he always finds things out by chance. Its hard to surprise my father so he has all the more fun surprising others at school he stuck insects down my mothers blouse as a father he had little time for practical jokes we children came along quickly and both my parents worked hard to build a life for themselves. Is a good asset that. He still put up his carriage an eighty nine we had already sent in our papers but we didnt take it very seriously we didnt think wed actually get to leave. We sent in our papers but continued life it came as a surprise when we left we were young we took it lightly and. For us to speak german and for our children to learn. To go to school and to be able to attend church for. The kids. But there were lots of difficulties we didnt anticipate that. It was hard in the beginning we werent the germans and that was a bit humiliating to. Take a photo of me on hand. Yes its. Ok. If. Its a good go for it. If. Its a smaller one of the human flu the holes in just the longest. Distance. Thank god. Life in aziz is family reminds me of my childhood encounter a tough playing outside around the house all day running around my parents while they were working as this is. The fifth of. A mug gives them a push. To. Get him. If. He can. Well i thought about the old load of. Water but yes the soviet union is history now. Even the people who stayed have had to ask questions about their identity about their faith their roots their traditions with one tradition kazakhs have discovered a new for themselves is the game of cup park the riders chase each other for the carcass of a goat in order to carry it into their opponents gold. I tell. Them. That. Theyre using the kids in brazil where the boys are here but the lives of go like. This new but they actually use a little look youve come to kazakhstan lets drink to that. So theres a regular gust foolish decision i did you design and join you because you have an additional focal here. Lets go. 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God i was mysteriously appeared in organist when i put my first class together the germans came you came with your mother nina please take my daughter marina into your class and i said fine you want that if she will marry no wrote with her left hand. Donations and thats why i came to ask that she would continue writing with her left hand. That. I remember this conversation with my teacher well my gentle mother she achieved things in her own way. Another memory i have is of cafe crystal where we often eat ice cream it was a special place so i dressed up in priests girt and put white ribbons in my hair. Cut. We children took roaming around the streets for granted my many cousins and i grew up like siblings nobody had to play along. I associate that freedom and feeling of security with counterattacks with the sand the tickles in your nose and the wind thats playing with your hair its still the same place today. Was. Come. To. Your level all. 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This is the w. s live from above and more than sixty five thousand turn out for a free concert thats a in the against racism in the east in the german city of camp its a show of defiance against neo nazis for last weeks five and the michael protests also on the program the strongest typhoon in more than a quarter of a century hits japan forcing the evacuation of a Million People and causing