In San Francisco she actually wanted to return but circumstances led to her not being able to go back there and she died in 1928. She was buried in the Mountain View cemetery in oakland but she didnt have a headstone i think for about 80 years on till the circle finally brought her beautiful headstone. Booktv attended a Publication Party for the author of i should be dead a memoir of the politics and struggle with addiction. He mingled with guests and gave remarks on the book. The party was held at the home of the syndicated columnist of the longtime friend. [laughter] [inaudible conversations] i noticed that everybody said its good because there must have been 10,000 but. Did you see how many came out last week . It is absolutely amazing. You can read all the books being published that time. Amazon carries 1. 3 million titles. So if you are number one overall carpet is a big book about if you stay within 2,000, you are doing really well. And i noticed that [inaudible] [laughter] his books did well because he has so many wingnut. You said that this was going to happen. Can we talk about this and i said sure thats fine. It turns out they do that for everybody. I will tell you how long ive known the mcmanis. [inaudible] i went and had that. I was in a wheelchair and all you are doing is getting in the way which is what i want to wanted with my former motherinlaw. [inaudible conversations] johnson funeral home in new york city from its five stories high. She had to go around and close these things. The viewing hours were over and i said well somebody come with me and they said no youve got to go do it and i swear they moved around. And i got fired after 85 funerals but [inaudible] they put him in this huge casket nobody could carry him so we had to do it. So we get about the same time and we put them on down the aisle and data down the aisle and the one guy was shorter than he was and though we all went underneath so we pushed him down so my friend has the flowers and we are going down and he cant stop. You have you have the red lights here you can go through them. So he pulls off and he says do you want a hot dog . Sure so im at the hearse and then we had to get behind the procession but they were built for horse and buggies. So there must have been a thousand we had to haul them over and by the time we got to the front we were sweaty and that was the end of that. But it was a job. Thank you for coming. Its been absolutely. Are you a washingtonian . [inaudible conversations] the you and i did an interview at the San Francisco convention and i was just exhausted. You wrote the nicest piece about how beat up i was and now after all that fight to get to the domination from about two months out i said if you realize the battle in the 7 Economic Growth and i didnt remember until i started i went for about 20 years. [inaudible] i did the first Study Campaign and we couldnt be sworn in until february so you are still that is absolutely amazing. [inaudible] me neither. [laughter] e. Has more than he is reading from. He was my nextdoor neighbor when i left the white house there was a store next to me on capitol hill and he came over and introduced himself and said im going to start a talk show and its going to be very successful. [inaudible] thats the big advantage. When i got picked up by cnn, they said we have a lot of good analysts but you have this experience and they had never done campaigns so it works out real well. [inaudible] i decided im going to do seven shows a week. It works out fine. The grind of a dalia show is just a little bit more than i wanted to go through. May i have your attention please we are going to do a short program. Thank you very much for coming to celebrate not only his birthday but his new book based b. Title. We are very glad to have you here. We have a bad habit in this town labeling people and by the labels we give them, then we defend them and the relationship that we have had over the years in the column for a decade now on usa today transcends labels. One of the things weve tried to do with that call on and on a personal relationship as we go out and the lecture circuit. They moved the ball move the ball forward instead of freeze the ball. Its a great thrill and honored to have him in our home and to introduce and offer a few remarks. [inaudible] this is out of my normal area because i usually talk about politics. But i look out in this room. The bill is a rightwinger and he hired me for the industry for some advice. But in any event throughout my career that spans about 20 years, ive had many relationships with conservatives and they worked out fine. I wanted to tell you that, and this is somewhat of a painful subject im a recovering overhaul it and at the beginning of the book i tell a story about the night i had been sobered have been sober for about two years and i have started and i was a poster child for Rehabilitation Centers all over the country but i was so outraged that george bush was given the presidency by the Supreme Court and so i went off the wagon and i went to this bar in the Southern District of. They simply are out sent me around the party line and i said if youre there its the best you will ever have and they sent me to the hospital psychiatric ward come and talk in to talk about kind of a long way. I woke up with the largest human being in my life. I said why dont you take a walk and she said if you go out the window im going to lose my job and i said whats my job and she said the suicide. Why dont we watch the inaugural and i said said if you touch that, youre going outside. [laughter] so finally he came in and i was at the vip room different than those down the hall. She thought it was a much better place to be and i said i guess texas marching music and you hear that . So im off and i stay that way and for the time as i said i was shot and stabbed and still have the board right here from the protest with the workers down in west virginia. My dad who was prevalent in this book i came from a very abusive family. My father used to think that it was funny to use me as a bowling ball down the stairs and i would take care of my brother and sister and it was horrible to say the least and i wish that he was still here but he was a very abusive guy that in the morning seems fine, sober and some people have this experience. But then at night she would come home and he was a totally different person. I wouldve told them one of these days im going to pick it up and it happened. If you come out of a family like that, your chance of surviving are just nonexistent. You will be psychologically impaired. As it turns out, they came through this and learned the survivor skills, the things you need to be a politician and i did become a politician but its amazing when i went to capitol hill, how many people were in similar situations from abusive families and i will tell you a quick story i dont know if you know who dan burton is that hes a congressman from indiana who thought the idea would be from shooting vince foster in the park. Anyway, we didnt get along at all. He does in was in the room with fox when they and i noticed his hands were all scarred. He said my father used to hold up a block of ice on hot days and he would use a fan of no guard on it to get cool air coming out. If you come out of the situation and you dont face your demons he will become an alcoholic and most do not face their demons so i lived there by day and night and i worked as the youngest deputy state in history and when they called me up i was being campaigns and i was doing quite well. Which state . They said the United States of america which i go into indepth and how we got the votes to get over the top. So working on the white house by day it was fine and then i would go to the dark world and thats where i wanted to be in the upper northeast and southeast. And people were all con artists. And i felt comfortable there and i lived that life and then all night long the next day. Theres an old saying if you get sick and tired of being sick and tired and are tired of getting up in the morning you see blood on the front of the car if you can somebody over. And so i got sober, fortunately and i was having a difficult time at first and i had just been exported by a bunch of prostitutes which i didnt do for the first time. So i was getting divorced and living on a farm in western maryland people to call and i would go up to cnn. They would call me and say can you give a tv show and i said no, no. So one day they said he wanted one with cal thomas and for some reason, i dont know why but i said yes so i went in and he said you know we went in and came back out and he said do you believe in god and i said no it doesnt exist to me and we talked to many things and he said the deal mind he might if we send you books out there. He sent me a book called the evidence of the demand of the verdict verdict and all of a sudden it started to become real to me because it was a history book really and i went up a bit more into little in the baltimore and eventually he wanted to get me into his church they thought for sure command of course hes always just at the front so i had to walk the whole way back. But as rob nor is still here . He was fundamental in the recovery and its my understanding if youre going to get sober you have to have faith and if you dont ive never seen anybody in all of my years of working if they dont have faith in something in a higher power they are not going to make it. So why am i still around and you will see in this book these were real things. My face as i need to forgive you and he said youre crazy. So it cannot handle that was going on and he stood by me the whole way and so did my friend, bill. You know who your friends are when you get into situations like that. But i stayed better sober so i decided to drive my pickup truck down and i got to the end of the road about a mile out and my pickup truck went in the ditch and i pulled it around and spun around and i heard a voice say youre not drinking. There is a saying this is the last thing between you and a drink is god and ive come to believe that. I will tell you one other story that may be incredulous but quite true. It is a time of i never get depressed in my life that i started to get depressed. I didnt understand how we could live with that stuff and so the others came and began to talk me into face and they became vessels for faith really. So it was a dollar a year. This day i had a divorce and the family judge was retired. Do you mind if i move in with cleveland and i said if i can rent the truck i will get you there in the middle of the night. [laughter] excuse me, that is my bookie. [laughter] i cant drink again and if i do im gone and i will never come back to. Theres a lot of encounters with others and i do its not because i like alcoholics. I cant stand them but when you do interventions its very painful to see. When you are behind enemy lines, so i tried to declare myself the chairman of the board. You all know as they look back at it they dont think about it the next day. I said i care what you think but i dont care what you think about me. I have secrets, a lot of secrets i wanted out. I was able to help a few people but the secrets were still there and i wanted them out. I should have been in jail for a long time and i was in a stolen car and back then they stayed up until six so i said it is a nice car here and i looked down and it was wired. Everybody died except for me. They still have a warrant out for a big guy but in any event, there were a lot of things im not proud of. June 10th through with all people who read the book before it came now two weeks ago, the ones who would rally around true friends friends, and thats all right. To hit you can count friends on five figures you were doing pretty well. Thank you for coming. So i am right if he is wrong. But there is a true story is in the late spring about wrapped up the nomination and. If we read as a catholic we will all get beat. So the convention in that spring tuesday there are irish catholics. He said i know you are worried. Id love ivars catholics and italian catholics. It is the Roman Catholic side cannot stand. [laughter] so when you read this you expect certain things but i thank you will enjoy this. With ongoing addictions there is no way to do a. I hope that will help a lot of families. Thanks for coming. [applause] this is one of the most transparent and honest books. Please put it on facebook because he is right. Nobody wants to know about the age just want to know about him. The most frustrating thing in the world. [laughter] now i can say ago by the book. Selfie ever amounts to anything he can sell that on any day. [laughter] [inaudible conversations] there always like to do what i can do. Please do. What i talk about being an addict that is good. It helps civic you weds in twice . The second time. [inaudible conversations] thank you for your inspiration. He is. [inaudible conversations] and the same place. [inaudible conversations] i and another friend of bills. Good for you. Almost three years i have been going to a. I have heard about that meeting. Is small now. I went to that meeting once. There is another aa one. Steven give me your telephone number. Day you have a card . Please be careful with this number. I have all kinds of right wing people to contact me. He moved to florida. In he died last year. And then put his head on the table he was gone. Let me write my number and the email address. Had he retired from the network and . But i thought i saw you the other night. I was a non msnbc. Or cnn. Thank you very much. Did you follow the campaign . So my question was and i saw him when he would run against him. I wish she had not done that. He is 88. But he still gets around. Thanks for coming. How are you . It is good to see you. I was reading patricks book. Ive gotten involved with him if he was sporadic to say the least. But is the family upset with them . [inaudible conversations] we had a terrible argument on this. To make sure everybody understood. If he did that remarkably well. [laughter] the spec i was on the operating table tennis and a half hours it was a brutal comeback. It will be another year. [inaudible conversations] what are you doing now . I retired. I imagine the jfk library. Soy and trying to make sure it gets quickly. I remember you did most of the work. [inaudible conversations] if nine noone. [inaudible] your brother . Why did you say it like that . Would is his name . [inaudible conversations] i will give you my number and they dont do this often but island to be sure they get my number. But please do not let that get out. Anytime he wants to call. 24 7. He may not want to but only an alcoholic can handle an alcoholic. Please have him call me