my father in my memory. he became this prince in my mind. i was living this horrible existence and he was going to come save me. >> you still love him? >> and i still love him. so jen, where are we going now? >> to my old men ielementary sc. this is where i was a fourth grader when my mother came in and told me about his crimes. >> when was the last time you were here? >> 35 years. >> i was avoided coming over here because it's completely intertwine in the first worst d my life.