that crowd doesn't always take jokes at their own expense very well, so that can be tough. we heard from roy just a little bit ago and he had all the cards. he's trying to figure out which jokes he's using, which ones he did not. when you did it, did you nail anything down or did you do everything on the fly? >> i had it planned on the day s in front of me, too. listen, if you start off and the first couple of minutes it's not going well you've got to veer off and try another direction, you know? to be obligating yourself to what you're going to do out there at least in my case it would have been treacherous. >> do you have any moments that have scarred you for life? >> i'm not scarred for life. i -- there was one time i said something -- i sort of lamely said and i think women should be in positions of power in the military and you can feel the