>> when i walked into the courtroom and i looked over at swamiji, he looked at me in the eyes and smiled like i was his kid or i was his and that he possessed me. i just was, like, you mother [ bleep ]. like you do not own me. like i am not wrong. it just changed my entire approach and thoughts about how i was going to testify. i was so terrified, but he made it so ease where i for me to just spill my guts, and i did.